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Home is back

Rhett backs off and I see a tall silhouette standing on the door. It's Nicholas or am i dreaming? For a moment everything turns into pure instinct and bare strength and power between them. Like we are wolfs or lions and Nicholas is the long gone male of the pack and Rhett the youngster who was messing around with his females. In this case, I was the one and only lioness. Nicholas is pocking Rhett down with just a look, making him feel completely weak over the strongest one property, his eyes made even me move uncomfortable in my position, I felt like that too. I try to reach Rhett's hand as the fear of Nicholas anger and frustration hits every inch of my body, but I can't find it. He had already taken his guitar and walked out of the door.

Just one of Nicholas deadly looks, his toned muscles and the clear mental shine "hands of my things" were enough? Rhett left without a word, only giving me a sad look when he exit the room, I felt my heart melting in my chest and a desire to grab his leg as a child and make him stay, but I didn't move at all. I was in such a shock i couldn't speak or do anything as I watched my ex kicking out a guy who was about to kiss me. Nicholas turned on me and grabbed my head between his hands.

I look deep into his eyes to see nothing but love and happiness, his jealousy long gone already. He kisses me softly, placing his perfect big lips on mine to see if I will respond. Even if my mind is confused and upset, my body recognizes him, reacting to his touch, I kiss him back softly as well. He embraces me to a deeper kiss, leaning closer to me, his huge muscular body touching mine. While he lets his tongue explore my mouth he pulls me closer, now I am around his long legs. I lose myself on his kiss, letting my body respond to it, I feel my insides burning from the inside out, my limps feel like mush and my heart beats as fast as possible, my blood boils with desire. I want him right here and right now. Although he pulls back letting me standing there with my skin warm and red.

-Oh good I missed you so much, your eyes your face your lips, your body....you don't know how many long nights I've spent sleepless thinking about you. Do you know how hard is to find someone like you?

His breathe is fast, his voice deep and his eyes are dark.

-For you to be here, I guess very hard. Why,how,when?

-I learnt you had an accident and I drove my parents crazy to come here and see you. Your parents know, my mother told them. So by the time they gave me the okay I came as fast as I could. I missed you babe.

-I missed you too, my love.

-Who was that?

-Just a neighbor, he is keeping an eye on me while my parents are at work.

-I hope he didn't let his hand on you didn't he?

-None of your business sweetheart. I don't want to know how many girls laid their hands on you while I was here.

- Are you sure you don't want to know?

-Will you be honest?

-Yes, a lot of them, but none of them can compare to you, that's why I'm here, because I can't fucking forget you and it's tearing me apart for hell's sake.

He establishes his last words by passionate kiss. I feel my whole body burning as I give the kiss back, feeling the wet inside of his mouth again. It's so familiar, so sweet, so wanted.....

-I've missed that so much, so much...

-Me too babe.

-What have you done to me? Before you I was a player who couldn't help himself for hitting on any girl he laid eyes on and here I am now, two years later unable to be finish without thinking you and screaming your name. What did you do to me? I can't stand it.

His voice breaks with his last sentence and tears me apart. I drive his head on my shoulder to let him rest there. I run my fingers through his hair with rhythmic movements, adoring his pretty face. I'm not angry that he wasn't faithful, he didn't have a reason to anyway, but he returned, he came.

-I have missed that, sleeping in your hug after an exhausting round.

-I have missed doing the exhausting round.

He smiles without opening his eyes. We should probably get dressed, my parents may come. I grab his shirt and my underwear and put them on. I smell the strong scent of his body on the light blue t-shirt and feel like I'm going to explode, he is back, I'm not dreaming. When he dressed returned to the bed and put his head on my belly.

-You have taught me a lot of things, you know that Shorty? You taught me how to be a good boyfriend, how to actually adore someone, how not to be cocky and how to be a perfect lover, not that i was a very good one already.

I slap his face playfully. He opens his eyes and rests his chin in my stomach looking directly into my eyes now.

-But the most important thing I got from you is that home is not a house, a country, a continent. Home is a person. Do you know how I learnt that? When I and my friends were messing around with girls and I was catching myself comparing them to you. And the worst of all I couldn't live single moment with them without thinking about you. They had to be you, only and only you. Do you know how hard is for an 18 year old boy to not be able to be with any girl except the only one he can't have? When the only thing my peers are talking and focusing on is girls? I can't fucking live without you, I was feeling like I moved out too, I became a stranger in my own country because of your absence. Why?

He is voice is cracking in many pieces like a glass. He has drowned his face in my belly trying to hold back his tears and I'm crying. Like I have never cried before.

-I feel the same too, but I had to keep my promise to you. I tried to walk outside, to not think about you, even hang out with other boys, but here you are and destroy everything with just your eyes, proving me I was just building sand castles all this time.

-I want to return to Greece and be able to get on with my life. If I can't be with you i have to do it, I don't have another choice.

-I want you to leave and be able to go on with my life, the distance will kill us elsewhere.

-What do you suggest? You are good at these things.

-You will stay for a month, until the beginning of the semester. And we will spend the time of our lives during that month. But we will never talk to each other again after that, no until both of us have got over each other, I need that as much as you do and since I can't kick you out after all the miles you traveled, so it would be fun to stay a little longer.

-You are amazing Shorty, I love you so much, thanks for doing that for me.