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Go away

I lock the door behind me and get under the sheets. They smell like him, they completely have his scent all over them; I buried my face in my pillow and cried my anger and disappointment outτ. He couldn't have done it, he is better than this. Why would he do such a thing to me or Rhett? Doesn't he know I love him, well that I loved what he used to be? He humiliated him in front of his friends for no reason. Suddenly I heard the door slamming open and steps on the stairs, then a push almost broke the door making my drawings on the wall move.

-Open!

It was Nicholas.

-No, I won't I don't want to see even a picture of you right now!

-Babe come on, open the door. We will discuss I promise.

-I said no!

He punches the door and tries to slam it open but fails. My heart is about to pop out of my chest.

-You can't behave to me like that for a stupid neighbor you barely know. I'm your boyfriend.

-You don't act like that though. You act like a spoiled child whose candy was taken from it, I'm not your property Nicholas, and you have to respect me as a person. You can't bark for how good and beautiful I am in front of everybody, I'm not your pet.

-I respect you.

-No you don't. When you purposely get into a fight with one of the three -four people i know in this town clearly putting my relationship with them in danger you don't respect me. You don't respect my effort and try to socialize, to move on, you tear everything apart. You can't walk in my life and knock down everything. You don't have the right.

-I'm sorry

-You are not sorry. I know you well enough to can tell your facial expression right now. You enjoyed it, you liked that you made clear you are the stronger. You informed everyone that you are the cockier too. I want you to leave.

-What? What about the one month thing, you can't be serious.

-I am, i will fit in quicker without you. It's the best for me and it's about time you actually do something for me.

I heard him going into the guestroom. Then I collapsed.

I had been crying my eyeballs out when I heard my parent's car pulling over. I didn't have the strength to talk to them or even unlock the door, but they got worried when they returned and saw me and Nicholas locked in our rooms so I had no choice but to actually talk.

-Maritina darling open please, what happened are you okay?

My mum was trying to sound calm but kept failing, her voice was cracking and she was breathing faster than usual.

-I'm okay mum we just had a fight, don't worry.

-Fight? You two? Why?

-Doesn't matter. I need some time alone if you don't mind.

Why would he have to do this? I was finally doing okay. I had met someone I could actually hang out with and he made sure to humiliate him and make me look like I was the cause of all. Where the kind Greek boy I used to know was? I have missed him so much, I don't need this jerk, and I need the boy that used to smile like a fool when I was playing with its hair. What he has become can't stay in my life any more; I need to put my life in a line and with him around that's impossible, he needs to go away from my home and my life once and for all. But I don't want to leave him; he was my everything for so long....friend and boyfriend, I love him. He is not that guy anymore, I couldn't be with such a selfish and cocky jerk, but what if he is just hurt, what if he needs me to drag him out of this state?