The next three months followed the same pattern. Haven, Jake, Ryan, and Cora (I had become great friends with her) came over for daily comfort and fun. One of the days I decide to go to Haven's house to have some girl talk.
"Haven, is there something wrong with me?"
"Why would you ask such a silly question?" Haven replies, spinning around to face me.
"Well, Ayden and I have been on dates and we kiss and he'll surprise me with gifts, but he hasn't touched me since the miscarriage. Am I undesirable now? I know he wants an heir... Maybe he thinks I can't give him that..."
"Have you told him how you felt?"
"No, I don't want to make him feel bad."
"How about we go shopping for some lingerie that'll make his mouth water. Then if he still doesn't touch you, ask him why." Haven shrugs and grabs her purse and keys.
"Why does your answer always having something to do with shopping?" I tease as I follow her out the door.
"Because shopping is always a great healing tool." Haven states matter-of-factly. I laugh and get in her car, knowing it is better to not argue with her on that. We get to the mall sooner than I would have liked. I wasn't sure this was such a great idea. I let Haven go crazy and buy whatever she thought I'd look "mouthwateringly good" in. My jaw dropped when I saw she spent two thousand dollars on lingerie.
"What did you do, buy the entire store? I expected you to get one outfit, not five million!"
"Calm down! I bought enough to last you two months. You do want a baby right?"
"Well yes, but-"
"No buts. It's my money not yours, so don't fuss."
I clamped my mouth shut and helped her carry the bags to the car. I put the bags I held in the backseat, then slid in the passenger seat. "Was it necessary to buy that many outfits though?" I grumble, grateful but uncertain still.
"Mhm! I wasn't sure which one you'd like so I bought them all." Haven smiles as she backed out of the parking lot. "I hope your plan works."
"My plans usually do!" She pipes up cheerily. We get to Haven's house, then I get to my house after transferring the bags to my car. I park in my driveway, get out, open the trunk, grab the twenty or so bags, and trudge to the door. I fumble with the keys for a minute before I finally get the door open. I shut the door and head upstairs. I set my bags down on the floor and know I have about two hours before Ayden gets home from work to freshen up. I take a shower for thirty minutes, get out and dry off, wrapping the towel around me when I am done. I walk into the bedroom and glare at the bags. "Time to start digging," I groan.
Forty minutes later, I pull out the perfect outfit. It is a teal colored lace corset with matching panties. I lay them on the bed and put the rest away before I get dressed. I have ten minutes left when I slip on my lingerie. I look at myself in the full length mirror and approve. I think about some makeup, but decide against it. I lay out on the bed as I hear the front door open and close. Footsteps start coming up the stairs soon afterwards. My heart starts beating in anticipation. The bedroom door starts to creak open.
"Alexandria?" Ayden's voice asks, shock evident in it.
"Yes?" I ask innocently.
"Why are you, um, dressed like that?"I flash back to the first time we had sex. I shake my head and snap back to the present. "I thought I'd surprise you." I whisper, suddenly very shy.
"It's a lovely surprise-"
"You just haven't even tried to have sex with me. I know the miscarriage was my fault, but I can still give you a child if you still want one." I blurt before I can stop myself.
"Alexia, I haven't been pushing for sex because I didn't want to rush you. The miscarriage wasn't your fault and I want to try for a baby, but only if you are ready." Ayden calmly says, walking closer to the bed. I was at a loss for words. Ayden is always so sweet to me.
'I don't deserve him.' I get up and kiss him, putting my emotions in it. "I want to try for a baby," I whisper against his lips.
That was all that I needed to say. Ayden leads me backwards towards the bed again, kissing me hungrily the whole time. He lays me down gently, not breaking the kiss for air. I untie his tie and slid off his business jacket. We stop the kiss to gasp for air. "You look stunning. If you hadn't said you were ready, I wasn't sure if I could have controlled myself." Ayden whispers in my ear, nibbling on it afterwards. I kiss up and down his neck, licking it occasionally to get a groan from him.
"I'm glad you like this outfit, I have many more I can try on for you," I breathe by his ear, earning another groan.
I unbutton his shirt as he unlaces my corset. Our mouths connect once more then he works on giving me a hickey on my neck. I moan in response, and I could tell this made him very happy as I unbuckle his pants. I help slide them off. The night continued and it was one of the best nights of my life.
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Change of Plans
Roman d'amour"You are going to be married to Ayden," she said, smiling brightly. I looked over at "Ayden" and knew he was a jerk. "Mom, when did you decide this?" I asked. "We had decided this when you two were born, but decided to tell you when you two were 20...
