*Jade's P.O.V*
Harry immediately backed away when we heard Alex's voice at the door. My heart raced at what was going to happen. This was a huge mistake. "Alex.. It's not what it looks like" I said softly even though I knew that's the excuse which is used a billion of times by everyone.
Alex did not say anything but I got up and grabbed my bag and shoes to leave but was stopped by Alex holding my arm. "Alex, you're hurting me" I tried to free my arm from his right grasp. He did not say anything but let go and I rubbed my arm to sooth down the pain. There was going to be a bruise. He did not leave me but this grabbed hold of my chin making me look up at him.
"Stop!" I heard Harry speak up from behind us as I heard him getting up. "Don't you even dare" Alex warned him. "And you. Just say goodbye, we're leaving to go back to LA tomorrow." He said. "Do you understand?!" He shouted. I nodded with tears in my eyes. He abruptly let go of my face and left to go downstairs.
"Jade.." I heard Harry's voice from behind me once again. At this point, I didn't even bother wiping my tears. I had never seen Alex this way before...
"Jade, please listen to me" he begged and before he could touch my arm, I turned around to face him. "You said you wanted me to leave right? I wanted to fix the mistake I made 2 years ago. But I'm going. Now don't stop me, Harry. Because you wanted this." I said releasing my frustration and turned away to leave.
I didn't even get the chance to say goodbye to Anne and Gemma as Alex practically held my arm and dragged me out. He opened the car door for me to sit and then slammed it close making me shudder. He soon got into the car and drove off. Tears were flowing at their own pace as I looked out of the window.
I should be feeling guilty but that's not something that's eating me alive. Nervousness and regret is.
"Are you going to speak up or not?" Alex spoke up in a monotone. I looked over at him but before I could say anything he stopped me. "You know what, ignore that. I don't want to hear anything" he said sighing.
I was afraid of his suddenly bipolar moods. Today was something that makes me afraid for the future. What if he starts being how he was back at Harry's house today? In the past years of my life, Harry had never even laid a single finger on me in terms of hurt. Yes, he would get angry and shout but he would make sure his frustration was out on things rather than people. He would break things but not me.
"Get out" Alex interrupted me from my thoughts. I snapped my attention to him only to realize we had reached the hotel. I quickly got out and followed him quietly inside the hotel and into our suite. "We need to talk, but let me take a shower first" he said firmly leaving me anxious and afraid.
I removed my shoes and went over to the bedroom and sat down on the bed. My phone rang a few moments later, it must be Anne or Gemma. I don't even know what to tell them. I stayed in the position thinking about whether I should pick up or not but soon I was stopped by Alex walking into the room.
I immediately locked my phone and placed it down. "Come here" he said patting on his lap as he sat down next to me. I hesitantly listened to him and sat. He immediately wrapped his arms around me and leaned against me. "Now, tell me what happened" he said. I had no words to say. My mind was blank and anxiousness was eating me alive.
"Oh sweetheart, you have no idea how much you broke my heart" he said changing his tone. "But you know what? I forgive you. Because I love you" he said placing a kiss on my neck. I couldn't believe him for some odd reason.
"Now, tell me. Why did you kiss him?" He asked. I looked down fidgeting with my fingers. "He did" I spoke up softly. "Oh no, Jade" he laughed acting as if he's worried. "I totally believe you" he flipped me over immediately, pinning me on the bed with my hands on top of my head, looking right into my eyes with a serious face. "Don't you dare lie to me. I've heard enough lies" he said with clenched teeth and with every word that came out of his mouth, his grip tightened. "Alex, please let me go" I begged trying to get my wrists free. "Shhh" he shushed me with one of his fingers on my lips.
"That's not what you said when you ex-husband was kissing, and holding you like this" he said emphasizing on the 'ex' and trying to place a kiss on my lips, which I turned to my side before he could even come closer. "Oh so you don't want me to kiss you now" he said grabbing hold of my chin once again making me squirm. "Stop!!" I wriggled out of his grip but he was stronger.
I could feel tears falling from my eyes but Alex did not let me go. "You're going to fucking call that filthy ex of yours . Tell him you regret and that he should never call you or even try to find you ever again" he said angrily. "Understood?!" He shouted. I nodded immediately. "Good girl. Now give me a kiss" he said changing his anger into fond and happiness. I gulped and let him come closer to place a kiss. With that he let me go and left the room.
I felt disgusted. I felt awful. But emotions are something I shouldn't be feeling. What have I gotten myself into?! I thought Alex would pull me out of the deep ocean and not let me drown but he himself is drowning me right now.
I wrapped my arms around myself and cried. I don't know what to do anymore. I thought I would be happy once again. I thought. But my life revolves around struggle and sadness... I've left my parents. I've left the boys. I've left Gemma, Anne... And Harry.
All I did know now was that I only had Alex. I just experienced a sight of him that shuddered me and I certainly don't want to experience it again. And I need to keep him happy. I took a deep breath and wiped my tears before getting up and walking out of the room to see where he was. I spotted him sitting on the couch with a mug of tea resting in his hand.
"Ah, Jade" he said noticing me and extending his hand out for me to hold. I held it and went to sit next to him, he then promptly pulled me closer to him. "I'm sorry..." I said. "I don't know what came over me and I let him touch me. I'm sorry you had to see it. But I promise you, it will never happen again" I said with all my courage.
"I knew you were better than that Jade. It's alright. As long as your mine and you accept me to be yours" he said placing his hand on my cheek and rubbing circles with his thumb. "I love you, Jade" he said. And for the first time... I said it too. "I love you too."
