*Harry's P.O.V*
"If I could fly.. I'd be coming right back home to you. I think I might.. Give up everything just ask me to." I started my solo for the crowd in front of us. Flashlights swayed from left to right by the loyal fans that stayed by us for the past years. Surreal moment.
That's when I caught someone's eye. She looked like Jade..? My heart raced as my part came again so I focused back.
"For your eyes only, I show you my heart
For when you're lonely and forget who you are
I'm missing half of me when we're apart
Now you know me, for your eyes only
For your eyes only"
I looked at her. She was in the third row on her phone. She had the same hair. Louis sang his solo as a boy next to the girl nudged her arm to look up. She met my gaze and I immediately looked away, pretending that I didn't see her. I sighed and fixed my earpiece.. Looking down. It wasn't Jade. I looked up to the same girl waving frantically which I politely returned with a smile.
I sat down on the edge of the stage facing the fans to sing as my mood dropped again. It's been the same for the past months. Going on stage, hoping that Jade would be sitting in the crowd, watching me. Hoping that she'll come back. But it never happens.
"For your eyes only. For your eyes.. only." I finished off and wiped the sweat on my forehead with my shirt.
"THANK YOU LOS ANGELES FOR HAVING US HEREEEE!!" Liam shouted through the mic as we all stood in a line to thank everybody. I plastered a smile on my face and waved at the fans. With that, we went backstage. Another concert done.
I plopped myself on the couch as the boys were talking about going back to the hotel and me back to my house. I logged into Twitter and posted a tweet to thank Los Angeles for having us tonight and locked my phone.
"Mate, you alright?" Louis sat next to me placing a hand on my shoulder. I nodded and sighed. "Just tired." I said. "Go home and take some rest." He then spoke up. I nodded and got up. "Bye." was all I said and left.
I went through the back exit since the fans would be exiting from the front one. It was a warm night but the cool wind made it feel a little better. I untied my hair from a bun and ran a hand through them. It's been very lonely lately. The fans have been noticing it too and that's what makes me even more worried. I want to be happy for them. They want to see me happy.
*****
"Mr. Styles, I have prepared your dinner already. May I be dismissed?" The maid asked. I nodded looking up at her before removing my shoes and heading upstairs to my room. The house was dark due to dim lights that I've been used to. It makes it seem more compact and cosy. Though trying to make the house comfortable would never work if there's no one permanently living here. That's the reason why mum gave me a few candles that she always kept in the house back in Holmes Chapel. That's what makes this house feel like home.
I removed my shirt and laid on the bed facing up. I've changed. But there's no one to prove this to. I've been a jerk. I've changed. I used to argue with her and now I miss her voice. I miss her sleeping next to me every night. I miss her laughing at my stupid jokes. I just.. miss her.
The door bell snapped me out of my thoughts. It was the only sound audible in the whole house. I got up and walked downstairs and opened the door to reveal Zayn. "Hi, mate." He said. "Hi" I stepped aside to let him in and shut the door. "I know you're not alright." He spoke up after a while.
I sighed and placed my hands over my face as I sat down on the couch opposite him. "Of course I'm not alright. I don't even know if she's alright.." I replied him. "She is." She spoke up catching my attention. "What? You talked to her?" I asked looking at him. He briefly nodded making my heart race. He then took out his phone and looked at the clock before dialing her number and put it on speaker. "It's 3 hours ahead there so it must be 12am. She should be awake." He said. I waited anxiously to see if she would pick up.
"Hello?" She spoke making my heart stop. That's when I started to feel tears forming in my eyes. "Hey, love" Zayn spoke "Zayn!! Hiii!!" She laughed happily. A smile found its way on my face at the thought of her happy but it was soon removed when she spoke up. "Alex, come here. Zayn's on the phone." She said. Zayn looked at my questioned face before giving me a sympathetic look. I took a deep breath and nodded my head and went upstairs without saying anything.
She moved on. I locked my room and that's when I truly let it all out. Crying myself to sleep was normal now. Nobody knew about it. Even mum didn't. Jade was the reason to my happiness and she was gone long ago. I should've accepted that I let her go and she doesn't belong to me anymore. But she was my Jade.
