*Jade's P.O.V*
"You know what I wanted to do?" Alex asked. "Hmm?" I replied chopping some onions for the soup I was making for him.
"I wanted to take you out today. I want the paparazzi to see that you've moved on" he said walking closer to me. "That you've upgraded" he continued, placing a kiss on my neck where it was exposed. I shivered at his touch but hid it in case he would snap and shout.
"Sure..." I said and moved away to put the chopped onions into the pot. "Let's go then" he said cheerfully pulling me into his arms. "Wait what?" I asked him confused. He laughed at my reaction and cupped my face looking directly into my eyes. "It's alright. I'm just joking. But I do want to ask you something." He said holding my hand. I nodded indicating him to continue.
"You know Jade, I've always planned to spend my future with you. I want to wake up next to you every morning. I want to be there for you at your best times to be happy and your worst times to comfort you. I want us to start a family together" he said leaving me speechless. "And I know it's too much to ask at this moment. But I want to give you time to think. And when you're ready..." He said pulling out a ring box handing it to me. "Just say it and I'll put it on your finger" he finished off his sentence as I held the scarlet box.
He wants to marry me? "It's too early, Alex..." I whispered. "I know, love. I know" he said placing his finger under my chin to make me look up at him. "But good things do happen quick" he said. "Just like how we met" he smiled widely.
"Take your time" he said with a sympathetic smile. "I'm sure you'll be alright" he concluded.
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"Mummy!" My 3 year old whined as she couldn't open her chocolate bar. "Here, give it to daddy" He said placing a kiss on Ivanna's forehead. "All done" he said after helping her open. "Now, go play with Theo. Uncle Niall brought him just for your play date" He said to Ivanna, making me chuckle. We both watched her run with her little legs towards Theo who was not far in the garden. "Shall we go, Mrs. Styles?" I felt his arm wrap around my waist pulling me closer. "We shall, Mr. Styles" I replied and we laughed.
I woke up immediately with my eyes widened. What did I just dream about... This is not right. And it shouldn't be.
I looked over at Alex, who was sleeping peacefully next to me with the blanket covering up to his neck. I slowly got up so he wouldn't wake up and walked to the washroom.
Ivanna...
I walked over to the crib and looked at the little toys hanging down. I couldn't control myself at this moment.. so I let the tears fall. The empty crib that would've been moving with Ivanna's laughter. The toys that would've made sound when she would've played with them. But here they are, making sounds without her presence, by my hands. I held my head in my hands and let it all out. I never knew it felt this way to lose something so valuable. I thought people moved on. But on the inside, I somehow knew that having someone so close to you for seven months, waiting for two more months only to be found out they're gone...
I couldn't stop the tears from falling as I thought about Ivanna. She would've been around 3 right now as well.. If only, she was here. If only... She would've been the reason I would've been genuinely happy with Harry.
I splashed water on my face before walking back into the room. I made sure I was careful not to wake Alex up. He has a meeting early morning.
I didn't notice when I was just laying there staring at Alex when he spoke up. "Staring is not nice, Jade" he said. That's something Harry would've said... But no! Harry told you to go away, Jade. He pushed you away.
"I'm not staring" I replied with a smile shaking off the thoughts. He returned the smile and pulled me closer to him as he nuzzled his face in my neck. "Love you" he said. "Love you too" I replied closing my eyes.
"Oh, I forgot to tell you" Alex spoke up again in his groggy, sleepy voice. "Hmm?" I replied him. "I have to go to Vegas for the casino management tomorrow. I should be back in a few days" he said and laid back down. What? "Wait, Las Vegas?" I asked him to be sure. "There's only one Las Vegas right?" He chuckled. "I mean yes, but casino management?" I asked him. What could that possibly be.. "You ask too much, darling. Some things are for you to not know" he said. "Now let's sleep. I'm really tired" he said and placed a kiss on my forehead.
"Goodnight, Alexander" I whispered after a while.
