Life With Trent Harmon

Part 17: Crazy Day/ Another Goodbye: Part 3

Trent places you into his dad's truck, closes the door and climbs in the other side.
"Trent why are we taking the truck??" You ask as he closes his door.
"Cuz I'm too lazy to move it and then get back in my car. He parked behind me, so we are just gonna borrow it."
You laugh and find his hand in the dark and slide your fingers between his. The radio starts playing and the song that comes on is a new one by Cole Swindell. He releases your hand and turns up the radio, and then takes your hand again as Cole starts singing
"When I've been gone, when I'm right here.. The minute my eyes open in the morning.
Out on some highway, or pulling in the driveway.
Clear blue sky or when it's thunder storming.
My mind just can't escape you,
The first time I touched you, that's when I knew.
I want you trust me, I want you to love me,
I want you to need me like I'm something you can't lose.
I want you to save me, I want you to crave me
Even when I can't find my way to you.
If you ever once doubt, anything I'm about,
All it ever comes down to, girl I just want you."
By the time the chorus is over, the tears are gathering in your eyes and you glance over at Trent. You can see the tears in his eyes too, as the song plays on.

"When you get rattled, or you're coming all unraveled,
When your holding everything together for me.
The way you revealed me, the way that you feel me.
The way you know I'm holding something inside.
Don't know what time has for us,
But as long as I'm here, one thing I'm sure of
I want you trust me, I want you to love me..."
As the song keeps playing, he rubs his thumb over your hand and holds on tighter.
"If you ever once doubt, anything I'm about,
All it ever comes down to, is girl I just want you."
As that song ends, another one comes on, but it is tuned out by the thoughts taking over your mind. You hear Trent singing along and look over at him. You try to make yourself memorize the way he looks right now. Hair in a perfectly tangled mess, the facial hair and the way it is finally starting to grow back in fully, the way he smiles when he sings certain words. The stars in his eyes while he's singing. The way he is grasping the steering wheel with one hand and grasping your hand with the other. You try to take everything in, and When he notices you looking at him, he smiles slightly and says "enjoying the view?"
"Mhm..." You say quietly and then laugh.
At the four way stop before you get to your house, trent turns right instead of left and ends up at the coffee shop where your first date was. When he parks the truck in front of the little building, you smile over at him and he says "you want your normal?"
"You know me.." You smile at him and he climbs out of the truck and runs in to the shop. A few minutes later, he comes out with a coffee in each hand and a small bag. When he climbs in, he hands you a coffee and reaches into the bag. When his hand comes out of the bag, he hands you a cookie. "Chocolate chip is your favorite, right?"
"Absolutely!!!" You say and unwrap it and take a big bite. "Mmmmm. They're warm!!" you say as Trent turns the truck back into the road. "Mhm" he says as he takes a bite of his "they just took them out of the oven when I walked in." Trent takes a sip of the coffee in his hand and makes a face.
"What??" You ask as he struggles to swallow the drink in his mouth.
"Uh.. This is yours. It has like 5 packs of sugar in it." He puts the cup towards you and says "gimme my coffee!"
You take your cup from him and say "but this has your germs on it..." He rolls his eyes and laughs as you hand him his cup. He takes a sip and says "mmmm much better."  After a few more minutes, Trent turns into your drive way. He slows the truck down and parks Behind your car. After a minute, he takes your hand, and turns the radio down. He looks straight ahead for a minute or two, and you do the same. You watch the stars twinkle and try to think of what to say. A million thoughts race through your mind, but when you finally decide on one, Trent says "don't. Don't say anything. Not yet." As he slides his fingers between yours. You look over at him and he opens his door and He climbs out of the truck. He walks slowly around the back of the truck and puts the tailgate down. Then he comes around and opens your door. He lifts you out and then sits you down on the tailgate. He goes back and shuts the door and gets your coffee. When he comes back, he hands you your coffee and the rest of your cookie and sits down next to you. The pain in your ankle is spreading all the way up to your knee, but you try to ignore it as Trent looks at you and takes a sip of his coffee and then takes a deep breath. "we have to leave for the airport in about an hour..."
You sigh and look up at the sky and then back at him.. "I'm sorry I can't go with you.."
"Babe. It's completely fine. You need some rest. And you need to stay off of your foot."
After a few minutes, He looks up at the sky and points at the moon. You look up at it too and he says "if I'm not mistaken, that moon is the same moon that's in LA..."
Tears spring back into your eyes and you try to fight them back. "Yeah.."
"I just want you to remember that... Okay? So anytime it's late at night, and you're missing me, just text me.. And we can look at the moon together.. And same way for me."
"Okay..." You whisper as the first tear rolls onto your cheek. You look at him and he is still looking up at the sky. After a second, he looks at you and you see the tears in his eyes, and he wipes one from your cheek.
"I love you. In case you forgot." He sighs and then says "I don't feel like I can say it enough. I love you so much."
"I love you too, T." You say and put your hand on his cheek. Your thumb runs across his bottom lip and then you touch your lips to his. Your hand moves to his hair and as he scoots closer, the a pain shoots from your ankle up to your thigh, and you cry out in pain as you pull back from the kiss. He hangs his head and then stands up from the tailgate. He helps you down and hands you your crutches. "But I'm not ready..." You say, and lean on him, careful to not put any pressure on your hurt ankle.
"I'm not either, baby.." He says as he wraps his arms around you.
You stand in his arms for a few more seconds and then he helps you get balanced on your crutches.
He follows you in and you see your mom sitting in the living room. She sees the tears on your faces and automatically jumps up.
As she rushes over to you, she seems to remember that Trent is leaving and she slows her pace.
She takes your medicine from Trent and tells him that you're gonna be sleeping in the living room, since you can't go upstairs to you room. He follows you to the couch and you sit down and prop your foot up. After you get seated comfortably, he sits down on his knees in front of the couch facing you. You hold your hands out and he takes them in his and looks at you for a minute and then leans in and kisses you, and then wraps you in a hug. When he pulls back, you see the tears on his cheeks and a sob builds in your throat.
You kiss him again, slowly, and then he sits on the edge of the couch and puts his forehead on yours. He looks into your eyes as tears roll down both of your cheeks and says "I love you, so much. Nothing..." He pauses to catch his breath "nothing will change that."
"I.... I.. I llllovvve you too... Trent" you say between sobs.
He touches his lips to yours and pulls you to him. Your tears mix on your faces as the kiss grows, and when he pulls back, a sad look is on his face. He looks at his watch and then back at you. "Okay, Princess. I need to go."
"Please don't..." You manage to whisper.
He pauses for a second and then stands up and hangs his head. When he looks at you again, there are more tears on his cheeks. He leans over and kisses you again and then kisses your forehead.
He turns and walks toward the front door and when he turns the door knob, he turns back around and looks at you. He stands there for a second and takes a deep breath. "I love you."
"I love you more.. " You say. And then "and hey, I'm so proud of you. No matter what happens. A smile crosses his face but is quickly replaced by the sad look again. He stands in the door way for another second and then turns and walks out and shuts the door behind him.
You hear him crank up the truck and turn it around. When you see the tail lights of the truck disappear, the sadness takes over and your sobs grow louder and louder. Your mom walks into the room and has tears on her face as she comes over and takes you in her arms. You hold onto her and cry until you can't breathe.

A few minutes later, your phone buzzes and you open the message.
"I'm so sorry. That was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I love you."
Tears spill back onto your face and you type back "I wanted to get up and run after you. Maybe my foot getting hurt was a good thing because I don't think I would have let you leave... I love you so much, Trenton."
Your mom walks into the room and hands you a pain pill and a small glass of water. You take the pill and then try to get comfortable on the couch. Your mom kisses your forehead and then sits down in the chair next to the couch and leans back. Your phone buzzes again.
"We just left the house, headed to Memphis."
"Please be careful baby. Please."
You watch the episode of Family Feud that is playing on tv and before it ends you doze off.
When you wake up, you have three new messages from Trent.
"We will baby. Try to get some rest. I love you."
"Hope you're sleeping well, I went through security. We are supposed to board the plane in half an hour.. I'll text you before we take off."
"Okay baby girl, I just boarded the plane. I saw the moon outside the window before somebody sat next to me... It's still the same one from your house. I'll check that it's the same one when I get to LA, too. They are saying we need to turn off our electronics so I need to go. I love you so much, Princess. Please let me know what the doctor says tomorrow. I wish I could be there with you, but I'll be praying for you. I already miss you so much. Smile, please. I love you."
You look at the time and see that the last one was thirty minutes ago.
You type back "you're prolly gonna get this when you're in LA, but I love you more. Be careful and have fun. text me when you can tomorrow... I'll try to smile, but you have to smile too. Just don't let any of those LA girls fall for you.😉 I love you so much trenton William." You hit send and close your eyes. You quickly doze back off, but before you do, Trent's blue eyes and bright smile fill your mind and you can't help but get a few tears in your eyes. You go to sleep thanking God for Trent, but asking him to not keep him away from you for too long.