The Outsiders: I've Made Mistakes

Chapter Five

This was different. Mom and Dad was an accident, Johnny and Dally? That was a murder and suicide. Not something that is forgiveable. Not something you can understand how or why. Never something I'll get over. "I know you can. We just need to forget about how they died but don't forget them." He says. I believed him, I wanted to heal with him. I would.

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Its been a week since me and Soda had our talk. I started smiling again. The jokes that Two-bit made, I would laugh again. I could tell Soda was proud of him self. I could tell when I smiled. It seemed like life had gone back around and corrected it self. I haven't noticed all the pain that's caused me. "Lets go to the moives tonight. All of us, including you Darry." Soda said. Darry chuckled "alright. I guess." He says, Two-bit let out a big whoop since Darry never does anything fun. "Its gonna get wild tonight!" Two-Bit cheered loudly. "Calm down it's not like I wanted to get wasted and wake up in the street." Darry says, a smile on his lips. Two-Bit did his signature eye brow raise. "What time? And when did y'all ever want to see a movie?" I say, "who said we'll actually watch the moive? We'll probably tick some girls off so much they want to kill us. Or throw things at each other." Two-bit responded "that's what I thought." I say. "Oh it's at 8." Soda said looking at his watch. Normal time. "What time is it now?" I asked. "7:30" he says, I shot to my feet. "Then we need to go like now." I say, heading to the door. I pulled Soda by his arm and he pulled Steve by his shirt out the door while Darry and Two-Bit followed. We walked down the dark-ish road, like a pack of wolves, Soda was leading us.

"Man, I never thought I would see the day of the whole gang going to see an actual movie together." I say. "Better yet having Darry have an off day from work." Two-Bit says elbowing Darrys arm. He just rolled his eyes. "Thats a miracle." Steve says, Darry shoved him lightly and Steve just giggled. Thats when I saw a blue mustang pull up. We stopped, we had to. 5 Socs came out of the car. None that I knew, Bob and Randy were in perison. Bob has a life sentence but Randy has 20- 36 years Max. They didn't catch the others that we're there but I was glade they caught them.

One had their hand on the belt as if they were a cop the others stood behind him in a outward V. I noticed one of the Socs were female but I couldn't see her well because she stood by the headlights that shone bright. "Hey Greasers." The leader mocked. "What do you assholes want?" Two-Bit says. He ingorned Two-Bit and looked directly at me. "You're the little shit who survived the jumping and ratted out Bob and Randy right?" He says more like a statement than a question. I just stood there, glaring at him. "It sure was a shame your friend just wasn't strong enough to save himself and you didn't do anything to help him. I guess Bobbi picked a good pair to jump. Weak and fearful." I could feel rage boiling inside me. I could tell Soda was about to lose his cool on him. The Socs behind him laughed, "haven't y'all done enough damage to us?" Darry said raising his voice. "Oh we've done so much that it's fun. Like that criminal that committed suicide, to be honest I didn't think he cared about anyone but himself. He deserved to die." He smirked. He group just went quite and looked at him. "Shut your fucking mouth! If it wasn't for you assholes no one would be dead! You're the ones who need to die!" Soda yelled. "What are you gonna do movie star?! Huh? You and your weak ass gang anit got nothing for us!" The soc yells. His gang didn't say nothing, it looked like they didn't want to be there. "All y'all are are just white trash with money and bitchy attuides! No body like y'all! They just say they do so they don't get jumped by little pussy's!"

The Soc pulled something out of his pocket his hand was on and pointed it at Soda. I couldn't tell what is was till my eye focus on it.

He had a gun... He had a damn gun. My emostions went from tough to fear. Everything went slow, I only imagined the worst. I looked at Soda, he held his hands up in defence. "Don't! Don't do it!" Soda yelled but I heard it muffled. Soda stepped back when a loud echoing noise rang through my head. I covered my ears, I didn't know what just happened, I couldnt tell. Till I heard yelling. I looked back up where soda was standing but he wasn't there. Then everything went back to normal speed. I saw a body on the ground and the greasers running to the Socs and started to beat them. Once they all ran over there. I saw it... Soda's body on the ground. a single gun shot to the head. He wasn't moving. "Soda! No!" I screamed. I ran to his body, I was crying uncontrollably. Soda was gone. I feel to my knees screaming and yelling Sodas name. I called the docs every name under the sun. "Soda!! No! Please don't go now!" I yelled pounding my fist on the ground. Two-bit just stood there. Starring at his body. Steve had to pull Darry off the soc before he could kill him. I saw one of the Socs calling the cops because how painced they were. Darry looked back at Soda, tears were stained on his cheeks as more painted over it. I held Sodas stiff cold hand as Darry feel to my side. I turned to hold him, Darry held me tightly as I cried into his chest. "They killed him! Those bastards!" I yelled. I heard their car zoom off when the fuzz showed. All I could think was about Soda, all the memories we had and everything I could think of about him. His smile, personatitly, his will not to give up. He made me smile when I thought I couldn't, he talked me out of cutting anymore. He retold the value of my life. Now I was looking at a dead body. My once loved brother had just been ripped out of my life. I just wanted Soda back. I wish this never happened, I want my brother back. But I know that'll never happen. I'm looking straight at reality, death.