The Outsiders: I've Made Mistakes

Chapter Nineteen

I felt someone shaking me awake. "Ponyboy! Wake up!" Darrys voice laughed. I opened my eyes, I adjusted to the light. "What?" I groan. "Get up, we gotta go." He says, I was confused. I didn't think I would be leaving to go anywhere. "Where to?" I asked sitting up. "We need to run into town and get some meds." He says. I just nodded and he walked out. I stretched my arms, got up and changed. I really didn't want to go anywhere, I wanted to stay home and just lay in my bed till this headache went away. I walked out of my room into the living room as I saw Steve and Darry waiting for me. "Oh all of us?" I chuckled. "Yeah why not." Darry says walking out of the house. Both Steve and I followed as we walked the side walk.

My shoes scuffed the cement as my eyes were down. Darry and Steve walked behind me just talking about something, I don't know I wasn't listening, and I chuckeld as I kicked a small rock. A car pasted us but I wasn't looking, but I heard it stop. I looked up at the car. Instantly I knew. I knew they were socs. I chill ran up my spine. We all stopped and looked at them as they stepped out. "Ponyboy get behind me." Darry whispered towards me. I ran behind him and watched as Darry stood protectively in front of me. "Hey greaseballs." One mocked. I noticed a new girl with tight jeans on, she was glaring at Steve. "What do y'all want." Steve growled. The one who mocked us looked around Darry at me. "Him. We want our revenge on him." He days pointing at me. "Haven't you already got it?" Darry snapped. They just laughed. "Oh no. We want to get the little one." He says. "Well you'll have to get through us." Steve growled as he wiped out his blade. The girl just smiled sarcastically "that's no use sweetheart." She says before kicking the blade out of his hand and far. Thats when the Socs began to attack. the girl backed away and let the boys get the pounce. "Run Ponyboy!" Darry yelled. I turned and ran. I hid behind a bush where the socs didn't see me run to. I wanted to help them but I was so powerless. I kept watching both of them when I saw a boy get a switch blade and jabbed it in Steve's throat and slit across. Blood spewed out of his neck on to the soc. I covered my mouth as I screamed Steve's name. I saw him coughing on his own blood and the soc watching him fall. Darry was still fighting two socs when this happened. I was crying so badly. I didn't know what to think. My mind was all over the place. "Darrel! Get out of there!" I yell. He couldn't hear me because he had a blade being shoved into his chest. The soc stabbed muitple times before Darry fell to the ground as he held his chest. I screamed and cried as the socs started to get back in their cars. I heard the girl say 'what the hell was that!?' Or something.

I ran to Darry. He was on the ground coughing and wheezing. "Oh God! Darry no!" I cried. He looked at me, he could barely focus because his head was moving so much. "I gotta call the amablualnce!" I yell to no one. Darry grabbed the collar of my shirt and pulled me to him. Not letting me get up. He locked eyes with me. He just... shook his head... "I'm not gonna make it Ponyboy." He says weakly. I grabbed his hand with teary eyes. "No, Darrel, you'll be okay. I'll call 911 we can make it!" I say. His bloody hand gripped mine harder. "No- I love you Ponyboy... I love you so much..." he says as blood comes out of his mouth. "I love you too Darrel.." I cried. I saw his eyes roll in the back of his head as he just... died.

"No, no, no, no! NO!" I screamed. But they we're gone. The both of them. I looked at Steve. He was cut deep. Blood was everywhere. I could feel Darrys hand going cold. "Oh God no! Please don't leave me now!" I pleaded to my dead brother. "Don't leave me all alone!" I cried loudly. I hugged his head body, getting his blood all over me. I let go of his hand, staring at my bloody hands. They were shaking badly. I threw my hands to my face as I accidentally smeared blood on my face. I didn't care right now.

I sprinted to the nearest store. I was stummbleing from the tears that rested in my eyes. "This can't be happening!" I screamed in my mind. I ran into the nearest little gas station and ran to the counter. "Help! Help me!" I yelled as I ran in. There was only like six people on the store not counter workers. The cashier almost fainted when she saw me. "The phone please!" I cried. She pointed at the phone on the wall and I daied 911.

"911, what your emergency?"

"Please help me! M-my friend and my b-brother were just k-killed! Please help!"

"Where are you?"

*address*

"Okay we have officials on their way. They'll be there any second."

"Oh my God! Thank you."

*hangs up*

I ran back to the bodies of my once living friend and brother. I was crying really hard to the point my head was pounding. I couldn't look at them anymore. It would haunt me forever now. I should've done something... anything would've saved at least one of them but I ran. "Why did I run..." I cried as I was on my knees and leaned over towards the ground. "Why didn't I do anything!.." I cried out. I was furious with myself. I can't stand it. I heard the sirens pull up and officers getting out of their cars. I put my hands up so they didn't shoot me. I felt like they had their guns up. The police came up to the bodies in front of me as I began to stand. I heard a few guns click. "I didn't do anything." I say through sniffles. "Son, we're gonna have to have you get into the car." One said as they hand cuffed me. 'How could they think I did this. Why they hell would I kill my own brother and friend.' I thought as the cuffs clicked around my wrist. The man turned me and walked to the car that was parked sideways. The windows were rolled down and bars on the windows. I felt like I did this to them and the police had caught me. I knew I was innocent, but I felt as guilty as if I had done it. He pushed my head down and sat me in the back of the car. He shut the car door and walked over to another officer. I leaned my head back as tears leaked through. I shifted in the seat, feeling the cold metal of the cuffs on my wrist. I kept having flashbacks to everything I saw. Not just today, but from the start. Mom and Dads funeral...
Johnny's dead beat up body...
Dallys note...
Sodas shot body...
Two-bits suicide...
Steve's slit throat...
Darrys last breaths in front of my own eyes...

I looked out the window and saw people over by the bodies. They took pictures, documented stuff and took evidence. I closed my eyes tightly trying to block the sights I couldn't escape from. I heard footsteps approach the car. It was the same officer who hand cuffed me. "Alright son. We're gonna be taking you to the station for... questioning." He says. I could see he thought I was the one who killed them. I just sighed because it's not like I had a choice anymore. He walked to the drivers side and got in along with another officer who got in on the other side. The windows rolled up as we started driving away. I looked back, only to see the bloody scene I saw before. I over heard the police officers talking about me,

"You really think the kid did this?" The one in the passager seat said.

"I'm not sure what I think. But I believe the kid was involved. He may not killed them but he must've done something."

"Huh. You're really gonna believe that."

"What you think he's innocent?"

"He's just a kid."

"Yeah, the kid who killed two people."

I wanted to scream 'I didn't do anything' at them. But I knew, I knew they would never believe me. I knew that they would find a way to tie me to this case and I would spend the rest of my life behind bars. But, I got nothing to lose anymore. I lost everything today, everyone I cared about...

Gone...