Teach me how to Mafia

25

Evzen stood firm before me as he partly held on my waist. He looked straight in front as if watching a boring old movie.

I can't believe how tedious his expression is as people in front of us were killing each other.

"I'm sorry to make all this fuss in your presence, milady." He said not turning his head at me.

"It's okay, it was said in the job description." I kidded to reduce the tension brought by the atmosphere.

Hindi na siya muling kumibo pa. Napatingin ako sa harap ko at nakitang may lalaki na sumugod sa likod ni Andela. But before he could even strike, a loud sound banged my ears and saw the man lie down the ground.

Evzen shot his head and he bled to death. Napalingon sa amin ng saglit ang tatlo naming kasama at bahagyang tumango. Matapos non ay ipinagpatuloy nila ang kanilang ginagawa.

I know that the Barone has to pay the price for the things they did. They even killed innocent lives of students and rescuers and doctors and patients. But to see this kind of thing makes me feel bad for them.

I always hated to admit that I have a soft heart, but I guess I can't hide it anymore. I know they were our enemies, they stood in the battle with the intention of killing us, and that we can't win if we will be hesitant to kill them, too.

It's just that my heart seemed condole for their unwinning souls.

"They don't deserve your pity, Priam." Napaangat ang tingin ko kay Evzen na may nag aalalang mukha.

Tinawag niya ang pangalan ko sa unang pagkakataon. Nakatingin siya sa akin at nag iwas ako ng tingin dahil parang kayang kaya niyang basahin ang nilalaman ng kaluluwa ko.

"I-I don't pity on them." I tried denying but he held my arms and made me look at him.

"My queen, they had intentions of killing you. They even committed crimes that harmed innocent lives and the end they are having is something that they made for themselves. Your sympathy is something they can never deserve." Napayuko ako at piniit n intindihin ang sinabi niya. May punto siya, maybe I was leaving that point to somehow reduce the guilt I shouldn't have felt.

Why do I have to be guilty in the first place? They were the ones who violated us and all that we are doing is for the better.

Why would the world need scums? Why would the world nee-

"Spare me, Zaccardi Boss. Inutusan lang din kami." A man from behind my back soaked with blood spoke and caught my attention. Nagulat ako kaya naman nauntog ako sa likod ni Evzen.

Tumingin si Evzen sa lalaki na puno ng pagmamakaawa ang mukha. Walang ano-ano'y iniangat ni Evzen ang baril niya at tinutok ito sa lalaki. Hihilain na sana niya ang gatilyo ngunit itinulak ko ito upang mag iba ng direksyon.

"C-can we just let him? He doesn't have to die in your hands. He's severely injured and I don't think he can survive. Just... let him live til his last breathe." I don't know why I said that but Evzen heed my request and withdraw his gun.

"I'm doing this because it is your request, my queen." He declared and glance at the others in front.

"Thank you." I whispered.

Tinignan ko ang lalaki sa likuran namin at nanghihina na siya. Mabagal na din ang paghinga niya at hindi na siya muli pang nagsalita.

There were few more people standing against Andela, Ercole, and Colt. I don't think it will last long until they can kill everyone from the group that attacked us.

I reflected on what Evzen told me and try to understand it in his point of view. It somehow calmed me that he said those things. Because if not, I would have been swallowed by the guilt for people who are unworthy.

My attention was caught by two guys teaming up against Ercole and had the chance to cut his arm deep enough to partly slow him down.

"Ercole!" I shouted out of nervousness.

A confident smile plastered in his handsome face and somehow conquer the fear I felt. I knew he wouldn't be beaten up so easily.

Napangiti ako saglit ngunit nawala din ito nang maramdaman ko ang paglapit ng isang tao mula sa likod ko. Wala sa sarili kong kinuha ang baril sa holster nanakakabit sa baywang ko at itinutok ito sa lalaking umatake sa akin.

Isang pigura ng lalaking may hawak na kutsilyo lang ang nakita ko ngunit hindi ako nag atubili na hilain ang gatilyo ng baril sa kamay ko.

Halos matulak ako ng impact ng baril at ramdam kong sinalo ako ni Evzen. Binuksan ko ang nakapikit kong mata at nakita ang lalaking kanina ay nagmamakaawa sa akin.

So after all, may lakas pa din pala siyang gawan ako ng masama? Ibinaba ko ang baril ko at yumuko. I don't remember doing bad to them. I don't remember a thing I did that violated nor harm them.

They, on the other hand, planned on my assassination but when he pleaded for his life, I spare it. Pero nagawa pa din niyang sugurin ako.

"Is this how terrible mafia is?" I mindlessly asked. Hinawakan ni Evzen ang balikat ko at hinila palapit sa kanya. Ramdam ko ang yakap niya at hindi ko mapigilang maluha. I feel so bad yet all I can do is cry. Gusto kong magalit sa kanila pero nangingibabaw ang awa ko kahit na nga pinagtangkaan nila akong patayin.

"It's not entirely the mafia that is terrible. Their mafia is terrible, but not ours. Please remember that." He explained. Humiwalay ako sa kanya at pinunasan ang mga luha ko. Tinignan ko ang lalaking binaril ko na nakadapa sa sahig.

I hate to feel the way I did just a few moments ago, but I don't regret that he has to die in my hands.

"I understand." Turan ko kay Evzen. Tumakbo palapit sa amin ang iba naming kasama at nag aalalang nagtanong kung ayos lang ba ako.

I faint smile is all I can give to them as an answer. A static sound came from my earpiece and heard Jilad's voice.

"Proceed to your official assignments." Saad niya at tumugon ng pagsunod ang mga kasama ko.

"This way boss." Rinig kong sabi ni Andela kaya naman lumakad na ako papunta sa direksyon na sinabi niya.

I suddenly feel emotionally numb, like an empty transparent bottle that lets every light just pass by, with nothing to contain and nothing to show either.