Hinalikan nya ako sa leeg, he sucked my skin and it almost made me moan. I bit my lower lip to control my voice.
Nilayo ko ang sarili ko. "A-anong ginagawa mo Kris?" Kinakabahang tanong ko kahit alam ko naman na kung ano ang gagawin nya. Lalo pa syang lumapit.
"What?" He asked innocently while looking sexily to my eyes. It's obvious he's trying to seduce me.
Hindi ko din alam kung bakit wala akong ginawa at hinintay na lang ang labi nyang dumikit saakin.
Tuluyan nya na akong hinalikan and I kissed him back. He caressed my cheeks and then I started touching him.
Naramdaman ko ang kabilang kamay nya sa dibdib ko. Slowly, he made his way inside my shirt. He unhooked my bra expertly.
He then, removed my shirt, I'm topless, we're both topless. He cupped my breast while his mouth is sucking the other one.
"Hmm.." I moaned and tried hard to keep it inside my mouth.
"Steph.." He called my name silently that made me feel even hotter!
He kissed me allover my body and god! I couldn't help but moan his name! I couldn't breath anymore so I pulled away from the kiss. He kissed my neck down to my collar bone.
"You smell so damn good.." He whispered hoarsely. "So sexy,"
I touched him down to his stomach touching his hard muscles and his six pack abs. I caressed his biceps.. God! How can this beautiful man lay in the same bed as me?
He groaned as I touch his private part while he's still in his pants. I can feel it was hard and erected.
I never felt this way before with him.. this time it just feels so right.
Why am I suddenly so into him? Is this lust?
Nagising ako ng 6:00 am. Mabuti nga't nagising pa ako ng maaga. I sighed as I remember what happened last night. We did it like 5 times? Who does that? He won't let me sleep! Not until he's tired! He said he wanted a baby. Hindi ko alam kung gusto nga nya ng baby o kung gusto nya lang gawin namin yun.
Umupo ako sa gilid ng kama at tinignan si Kris. Mahimbing syang natutulog. Siguro pagod na pagod sya. Tumayo ako at nakaramdam ng kaunting sakit sa gitnang parte ng katawan ko. Jeez! How could Kris be that strong when it comes to sex?
Pagbaba ko uminom muna ako ng gatas. Nasanay nadin akong uminom nito since palagi akong pinaghahanda ni Kris noong akala nya, buntis ako. I smiled as I remember yesterday. Napailing ako. Hindi ko parin kakayaning mabuntis.. lalo na't kung si Kris ang ama. I can't imagine my future with him. Buo na ang mga pangarap namin ni Max. Ang tanong, kung tuloy parin ba yun?
Nanuod ako sa tv hanggang sa mag 7:30 na. Nagluto ako ng hotdog, ham at fried rice para sa breakfast. Inihanda ko ang lahat sa lamesa at nagsimula nang kumain.
Hindi pa man ako nangangalahati, umupo na si Kris sa harap ko. He's now wearing baggy short at nakaputing Sando.
"Good morning." I smiled. Ngumisi lang sya na hindi naman nakatingin habang kumukuha ng rice.
"So how did it go? Are you pregnant?" He suddenly ask.
Pakiramdam ko nabulunan ako sa sinabi nya, buti na lang nailunok ko na ang lahat ng kinakain ko, kundi baka naibuga ko na sa kanya. What is he talking about? Is he joking?
"Kris!" Tinignan ko sya ng masama.
"Why?" He asked confused while chewing the food silently. He was looking at me like I am the weird one. "We never used protection and we do sex too much. It's only natural.." Nagkibit balikat sya at natatawang ngumisi.
Umakyat lahat ng dugo ko sa mukha dahil sa sinabi nya. Siguro sobrang pula ko na nga ngayon.
"I don't wanna get pregnant." I said and look at my food again and ate in silence.
It took a while before he respond. "Yeah.. I get it." He said normaly.
We ate in silence and no one dare to talk. Sa tingin ko, gusto nya na nga ng baby. I'm just his damn slave at wala akong kinalaman kung gugustuhin man nga nyang magkaroon ng baby. Jeez. And him? A baby?
"Steph, what course are you taking?" He asked while sitting. Ako naman nililigpit na ang pinagkainan namin.
"Ako?" Napatingin ako sa kanya. "N-nursing."
"Ahh." Sabi nya habang hawak ang phone nya. "How many years do you still need to study?" Tanong nya.
"I am actually in my last year.."
"Really?" Parang nagulat sya sa sinabi ko. "And your step mom? She made you drop out?" He asked looking back at his phone.
"Yeah." I shrugged. "Maybe she just really doesn't like me. See? She gave me away with money.. I'm as worthless as that.." Sabi ko habang umiirap.
"Are you serious?" Tinignan nya ako. "It's not you whose worthless. It's your step mom. It shows how cheap she is. How could she throw someone like you?.." He looked at me intensely that made me look away.
I rolled my eyes. Paano nya nasasabi yan?
Tinignan ko syang mabuti, walang mababakas na emosyon sa mukha ko. What is he talking about all of a sudden?
"Why are you doing this? Why me?" Malamig na tanong ko.
He sighed and rolled his eyes.
"Why me? There are a lot of girls.. I don't know why it had to be me. You don't even have to buy one.. why me? I just wanna know.."
He again, sighed and closed his eyes like I'm giving him a bad headache right now.
"Stop bringing this up, I bought you because I can." He said with a cold glare.
"I need to know!" I yelled.
Umirap sya at may tinawagan sa phone nya. Hindi nya ako sinagot?! Pakiramdam ko ay tumaas lahat ng dugo ko.
"Yeah Ethan. Do me a favor.. I just decided, Steph will continue going to college." Huminto sya saglit at tumawa. "Of course not. Just that.. ah sht. Lets discuss it somewhere else when I'm not busy. Yeah. For now, ayusin mo na lang ang mga dapat ayusin. I want it as soon as possible.. Alright." Then he hang up.
He typed something on his phone, I feel like he is avoiding my eyes.
"You'll attend college at one of the most famous school here, Ethan and I have been talking about it. No worries, Ethan will take care of it." Tumayo sya nang hindi tumitingin saakin.
"You didn't answer my question, Kris." I said.
Humarap sya saakin nang may salubong na kilay.
"DAMN IT STEPH! Stop asking stupid and irrelevant questions, can you? Fck, you really have to ruin my day!" Marahas nya akong tinignan at iniwan.
I guess Kris is back, the way he really is. The devil.. I'm so blinded not to realize he only wanted a baby from me.. and not me. I'm so stupid.. why am I even expecting?
