Imagine time with EXO - the series

77. Imagine Luhan

The crowd carried me outside the airport like noisy blue waves, while I kept myself in a blank state… I couldn’t hear anything around, I didn’t understand why the old lady was yelling at me.. I don’t know how I ended up on the bench and why did that man tell me to take care next time..

If that little girl hadn’t come near, giving me a balloon to cheer up, I wouldn’t have realised I’ve been crying all this time. I thanked her, pinching her cheek shortly before she ran back to her mum who greeted me, nodding slowly.

Time seemed to stop suddenly.. I had no idea what to do, I couldn’t get myself together.. I just stayed there looking at the ground… My mind focused only on his words: “I need you.. I’m leaving.. Please come.. just once..”

I didn’t make it… He was gone.. He left me.. And why? Because I was so stupid to believe my friend.. I listened to her instead of understanding my own heart.. Now that everything was revealed, my entire confidence was shattered.. I couldn’t trust people anymore..

It all started when his travels made things difficult for our relationship. We barely had the chance to see each other more than 3-4 days.. At first, I didn’t mind the situation, since I knew how hard it was for him to be so far away due to his job. I kept supporting him, not complaining about a thing.

But then.. time passed and doubt slowly arose in my heart.. I felt that he had another reason to not stay at home.. I didn’t want to say it, but I really thought he found someone else.. I could sense the coldness in his voice, in his actions, whenever he returned home.. I felt something changed.. I just couldn’t understand why and when it happened.

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It was already midnight when I finally heard the doorbell ringing.. I stood up and ran at the front door to open it. He came in, kissing my forehead, then he went in the bedroom , dragging his luggage..

I followed him, looking for some clothes to give to him after he’ll get out from the shower.After that I prepared a little sandwich since I knew he probably slept in the airplane and skipped his meal again.

He sat on the couch, closing his eyes.. I put the plate down on the coffee table and sat near him, caressing his hair..

Me: “I missed you!”

“Hm.. I know.. same here..”

Me: “Are you going to stay longer this time?”

“I’ll leave the day after tomorrow.. I have projects to finish.. Ah.. I am going to sleep..”

Me: “You didn’t ask me how I’ve been..”

He turned around, running his hand through his hair, saying he was tired and we can talk tomorrow. I stood up, walked towards him and wrapped my arms around him, resting my head on his chest.

Me: “Let’s talk now.. I need you…”

“Come on.. don’t be such a kid..”

Me: “Please.. just 5 minutes.. stay here..”

“Why are you acting like this? I said we’ll talk tomorrow..”

Me: “You know very well you’ll be gone before dawn.. You give all your time to your job.. Why can’t you also give me these 5 minutes? Our home has become just a hotel room for you.. There is barely time for us to be together.. You continue your work even when returning from your trips..”

“Don’t start again.. I don’t feel like arguing.. I am here.. isn’t that enough?”

He pushed me gently away and head back to the bedroom, not even looking at the snack I made for him.. I changed my clothes, brushed my hair and layed down on the bed, near him, reaching for his hand.. He felt me and turned.. I let out a sigh, while staring at him.. Before closing my eyes, I answered his question: “You’re here Luhan.. but not with me anymore..”