New Dawn

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I fell asleep in Jacob's arms that night. He ran his fingers through my hair as I slept and would wipe the tears away before they could fall too far. As I drifted into slumber the nightmare from the beach fluttered back and took over my sight.

Jacob's cold body was beneath me. His chest as cold as my families, his blood drained from him. I let out a scream of pain and pulled his body to mine, brushing my lips to his and running my fingers through his hair. He didn't move, his chest was so still. A small voice pulled at me from behind. "Nessie, my Nessie." It was Jacob's voice but I didn't understand. "Why did you do this to me, I thought you loved me? Was it all a lie? Was I only a prop in your life...someone you could toss away when you were done with them?"

His voice hit me hard and I didn't know what he was talking about. I pulled my bottom lip into my mouth and then I could taste it. His blood, I gasped and looked down at myself. I was covered in a thick layer of sweet blood. I screamed out, "It has always been you Jake, I have only ever wanted you! Forgive me, love me. I don't deserve you but I need you, come back to me." As I sobbed out my screams, I began to shake. "Forgive me, I love you. Forgive me. Don't leave me! You're my Jacob and I need my Jacob." The shaking grew worse and slowly the dream faded to Jacob's face, wide eyed and at the verge of tears.

"I'm right here Ness, wake up I wont ever leave you, wake up!" I gasped when I realized what was happening. Jacob was gently holding me by the shoulders and shaking me awake. "Ness, I'm here, I'm with you. Please wake up." I could hear the pain in his voice and it made me hate myself even more.

I had killed Nahuel and was slowly torturing Jacob. I had messed everything up and I was the reason for all the pain my family had gone through and now, I was making it even worse. way. "Renesmee! Please wake up!"

I suddenly realized I was still screaming out for Jacob. I shot up off Jacob's lap and fell to the floor hitting my head on the ground. Jacob was by my side his eyes wide as he wiped away my tears with his thumb. "Nessie, are you okay?" He pulled me into his chest and held me in his lap as I curled my knees to me. "I love you Ness!"

I had to be strong, for Jacob. "I love you too." I forced my tears to stop and Jake's hand pulled my face up so I was looking at him.

"I will never leave you, as long as you want me. I am yours forever." His words hit me hard, did this mean he was only here for me because he knew I needed him. Before I could pull away his lips brushed mine softly. I kissed him back and pulled myself closer.

"I'm so sorry Jacob."

He placed his finger on my lips to silence me. "This is not your fault Renesmee. Don't ever think any of this is because of you." His voice was strong and it almost scared me. I just nodded my head, not believing a word he said.

This was going to be the last time I saw Jacob. My heart slowly ripped apart with pain as he reached down one more time for a soft kiss. But this time something inside me broke. I shifted, pulling one leg to the other side of Jacob's body so I was straddling him. I didn't let our lips separate but instead I deepened the kiss, rolling my hips closer into his lap. Jacob's hand ran down my back to my hips and squeezed me firmly. My eyes were closed tightly holding back the tears. Slowly, I let my lips part and my tongue slipped out, brushing against his lips asking for entrance. He gave into my pleas, our kiss deepened even more. This would be the last kiss from the man I would forever love.

Slowly I pulled away with a single tear on my cheek. Jacob quickly kissed it away, "Did I hurt you?"

"No, no! Jacob," it hurt me to lie to him but I had too, "I love you. Don't forget that." I brushed my finger against his lips taking in my Jacob one last time. Slowly I stood to my feet and pulled him up with me. He was looking at me skeptically. Had I said too much to make him think of my plan? I shook the thought away. I would leave tonight, run to the airport and get on the plain. If I take my self out of their lives they will be safe and happy. As long as I knew that, I could be happy.