It Won't Stop(Trust Issues Sequel)

Selfish

Jaylen's Pov

The next morning I woke up at 9 and went to my room to get some clothes so I can shower.To my surprise Chris was woke looking through his phone,I tired not to pay him any attention.

As I was about to leave out he stopped me.

"So can we talk about this now"He asked

I sighed and sat across him on the little love seat

"I guess we can"

"Lately I know its been hard,We been kind of losing ourselves since this shit happened but I don't want that to change us"I shook my head

"Chris you really think that has anything to do with yesterday,We were doin fine until you pulled that shit"He shrugged

"I didn't think it was a big deal at the time"

"So bringing yo ex to our dinner as a family wasn't a big deal"He smacked his lips

"No just like inviting Derrick wasn't a big deal"

"Are you fucking serious,Is that what this is about"

"After what his dad did to you,You really gonna allow him around you"He yelled

"What Charles did to me has nothing to do with Derrick,He's been helpful unlike you,He's like my fucking brother if anything but I can't believe you doing this ,you acted like everything was cool and if it wasn't you should have told me that"He smacked his lips

"Man gone somewhere with that shit,I ain't fucking stupid bruh and I know when some shit is up,you might not see it but I do,he wanna fuck you"He said

"Whatever,Your sick asf if you thinking like that,and that still don't explain why was she here"I said

"Cuz I invited her,She listened to what I have to say and here how I feel,She understands me and I haven't had that in our relationship lately"

"Are you fucking serious"I said looking up at him

"I mean if true,She do what u don't"I shook my head

"Well then maybe you should be with her"

"I wouldn't be wrong if I do"He said

"You see what I mean,You are so fucking insecure it's crazy,It's not even about that,It's about the fact that you feel like you can do no wrong"

"Nah,You act like bad shit only happen to you,You didn't lose your momma,I did,I had to put up with them long ass days knowing I couldn't go to the house to see her or a mother's Day without her,I did all that shit without you"

"Imagine yo momma being on drugs,Imagine being raped and beaten and loosing a baby you didnt know you had,I've put up with so much bull shit in my life that it's hard for me to get through the fucking days but I never sow it,I never just brush you off and make you feel like you bothering me,you do all that shit Chris and it's sad you dont see that I put shit to the side because I fucking love you  "I yelled crying

"There's days I don't feel like getting out of bed or even smiling but knowing I have my son and my boyfriend who I thought loved me makes me smile everyday"I yelled,He tried to touch my hand but I moved back

"No!I'm tired of this,I'm tired of feeling alone and it's like u don't even give af"He shrugged

"So what you wanna do"I shook my head

"Idk,Maybe we just need a break"He nodded

"You right"He grabbed his jacket and shoes leaving out the room slamming the door behind him

I just stood there still crying.This isn't how I wanted us to end like this because I loved him but I just need some time away from him to figure out what we gonna do.

I sat on the bed and someone knocked on the door.

"Come in"I said wiping my face,Bree and Alonna walked in

"You ok"Bree said sitting next to me

"No,I just wanna go home"I said getting up and walking to the closet

"Jay just calm down and think for a minute"Alonna said

"No I don't wanna fucking be here!"I yelled

"Jay please!"Bree yelled holding me as I cried louder

"I just wanna go!"I cried as they both hugged me............

Chris Pov

I drive to the studio to get a piece of mind.When I'm there it help me think and relaxes me,Like I'm in my own world full of music I can create.

My life has changed drastically since becoming what I am and I can't believe I'm basically about to lose everything because of it.

About an hour later everybody started blowing up my phone and I knew it was because they wanted to know what happened so I ignored them.

I called Rihanna and asked her to come to the studio.I needed someone to talk to that wasn't gonna preach to me how bad of a person I am.....

"So y'all broken up or what"Rihanna asked me as we sat in the studio

"I guess so,I mean she wanted a break"She laughed

"See what I tell you,Everybody was gonna start acting different when you become a big star,You don't need her Chris"

"I do but I'm not about to put up with all this bullshit when it's not even my fault"She nodded

"Well let's do something to take your mind off of that then"She said getting up sitting in my lap,I smirked

"Oh yea?"She nodded...........

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