#41 in Spiritual 2/3/17.
Religion. It's a big part of you. Some would say that religion is basically who you are.
All her life Amira has been told who she is. What she is.
A Muslim girl.
But the more she learns about her religion the more she r...
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"I still haven't forgiven you for not telling us about the whole Chris thing first," Natalie snatches the pack of Twizzlers from my hands, "You don't get any."
"Nat," I groan and try snatching the packet back, "I told you I am very very sorry, I didn't know what to do."
"You told that Mulfar before you told us," Scarlet flops down next to me on her bed and puts her book down.
"Yes, because he sort of knew already," I lie to get them to be quiet because I was suddenly developing the worst headache.
Maybe it was the Korean music blasting from Nat's baby pink speakers. Or maybe it was the fact that I was sick and tired of hearing Chris's name and talking about him over and over again. I just wanted to forget he ever happened. I told both Scarlet and Natalie about what he did when they cornered me and demanded to know what me and Seid were arguing about in the cinema. As I had suspected, they wanted to kill him. But I convinced them that Seid breaking his jaw and nose was enough, but they just won't let it go.
"I'm going home now," I get up and grab my bag.
"Relax, you know we were kidding," Scarlet grabs my arm, "Are you okay?"
No- I want to say.
Nothing's okay, I want to say.
I want to tell them both, I do, but I can't. I haven't even told Seid yet. Maybe he already knows, he probably already knows. The thought of him already knowing and not telling me makes my blood boil.
"I'm fine, I'm just very tired," I give Scarlet a false smile, hoping she's unable to tell that it's fake, "It's been a long week."
She notices, because she grabs my other hand and sits me back down on the bed and tells me to start talking.
"There is nothing to tell Scar, I swear." I lie to her for the second time today.
"Something's wrong, if you don't tell us we'll find out through other means," Natalie warns as she thankfully turns the volume of her music down.
"Is it Chris? Is that asshole still bothering you?" Scarlet asks.
"No, it's nothing guys, I swear." I would tell them but I really don't want to talk about it right now- all I want is to go home and sleep this entire week off.
Scarlet looks me in the eye for what feels like an eternity before lifting her hands off of my shoulders and sighing. "You know we're always here for whenever you feel like telling us what's bothering you-"
"There's nothing bothering me-" I cut her off.
"Yeah, sure, just come to us when you want to okay?"
