"I'm fine." I say, unsure how else to put it.
Sometimes it's easier than explaining. I could tell you what's really on my mind, and how I really am, but would you care? Last time I did, your response was too short, too simple, and lacking any empathy. So thank you. I don't really want to tell you how I am. Yet it upsets you when I don't tell you, so..
I could lie and say " I'm good." But you'd go on without knowing I'm not actually okay. I just want you to comfort me... But would you?
I could be honest. I could say " I'm really not okay right now. I'm panicking, and I don't know why." But you wouldn't understand that. You'd read " I don't know why" as " I don't want to tell you." When honestly I don't know. I don't want you pushing me enough to lie and tell you that " I don't know why" means something. Don't make me make up a problem. Just understand that I don't know... So that's off the table, I can't be totally honest.
If I say anything in between I'm afraid you'd brush it off and just say "Ah. I'm sorry." Thanks... I can really tell.
So yeah. I'm fine.
YOU ARE READING
Everyday Thoughts. Collection of writings and poems.
RandomThis is a compilation of stories too short to be their own, and free verse poems. I write each part while inspired by my current emotion, or something that may have recently happened. So know that all of these come from my heart, or my over active i...
