You don't deserve it. Not any of his time. Not a goddamn minute. You aren't worth it. All those compliments? Lies. All of them. They all just feel sorry for you. As for him? He's just a good enough person that he can't see you sad. Feel lucky he's even around still.
Just think about it... Him leaving you. Telling you he's fed up.... Telling you he doesn't love you.... Just imagine it. Wonderfully sad, isn't it? Well it's true. It will happen any day now. He doesn't care what it will do to you.
Don't fuck up again, it will be the last time. You've already messed up too many times. You worthless trash, he could do so much better! You're always depressed, you can't ever make him happy. You're always the reason for his bad mood.. Stupid bitch, how much more worthless could you be? You. Are. Worthless.
Everything he gives you and does for you is charity. He doesn't have to. In fact why would he want to?
GAHHHHH! Fuck you. Rip yourself apart. Hurt yourself. Kill yourself. He will leave, but don't you deserve to feel the pain? You don't deserve happiness. Not any. But he does, and you're holding him back. You're hurting him. You're hurting him like you've done everyone else. Just fucking sleep. Sleep and not wake up. Who cares anymore.
Better yet, live. You'll get crushed sooner or later anyways.
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Everyday Thoughts. Collection of writings and poems.
RandomThis is a compilation of stories too short to be their own, and free verse poems. I write each part while inspired by my current emotion, or something that may have recently happened. So know that all of these come from my heart, or my over active i...
