Everyday Thoughts. Collection of writings and poems.

Officially Done

I have finally realized after years of mental abuse, that I am not at fault.
I can do better, and I am doing better.
It's possible to receive the love that I give.
I was convinced I was nothing. That love had to be fought for so hard and you had to continue giving just to make the ends meet in a relationship.
I was convinced that I wasn't good enough. That I was more flaws than anything else. Turns out, none of the things you said were true.
I have found out that I don't need to change for the right person. That I can be me, and be shown love in a way you were never capable of.
In a way, I'd like to say thank you. For teaching me all the things I never want to experience again. For teaching me how I should never be treated, and for finally giving em the confidence to realize I will never allow it to happen to me again.

Finally I have moved on. My sadness, guilt, shame, and longing have turned into a cold anger. Eventually my anger will turn into nothing but a vague memory that will continue to remind me of what I deserve.

Thanks to you I'm finally happy. I finally found someone that's been watching solemnly from the sidelines wanting to save me. Someone who genuinely wants to lift me up and show me all the things you never fucking could.

As a final statement you will never hear, I hope you've learned from your mistakes and the next one gets all the greatness she deserves in this world, and fuck you for all of the bullshit and pain you put me through, making everything my fault when you were the one with the reins. I hope you finally learned your lesson when you realized how good of a thing you lost the day you left me. Now all of that is being given to someone that returns it, the way they should.