Everyday Thoughts. Collection of writings and poems.

What I wish I said.

I'm tired of you, I wish you'd leave. All kindness aside, you're dragging me down. You've stabbed me in the back. You're a liar, a cheat, and just horrible. You don't treat me how you should, and I wish I had seen that sooner. You said you'd help "fix me". What I didn't see is that I didn't need fixing. All you did was make me weak. I can't be with anyone and not be afraid to mess up now. I flinch when they go to touch me. I act like a victim and nothing is wrong. It wasn't physical, but mental. But I was always scared it would progress to physical. It never did, just because A friend told me to leave. So I did. I'm glad I did. I wasn't the only one. Sadly it took me too long to notice. If I had known sooner, I probably wouldn't have cared; You messed me up so much that I felt I couldn't do better. But you know what? I've found better. I'm treated better. I'm not cheated on. You can go fuck yourself, and hopefully you see the error in your ways.