I'm Having These Weird Dreams •The Flash/Barry Allen•

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Status- Afraid, angry, unsettled.

So today is proving to be better than yesterday. I found one of Roy's sweatshirts and I am so not wearing it right now.

Okay, you got me. I miss Harper.
But it's completely my fault that he's gone for good. Worse, I can't even find him, mainly because I didn't let him finish. That and we have a crazy psychotic evil deathly speedster running around causing havoc because he wants to rule every world in all universes.

Sound normal? I didn't think so either.

But this what I gotta live with.

Yes, a part of me is sad, scared, lonely and depressed, but I wanna be able to choose to be positive, to be happy, to be able to see the best in the worst of situations, just so my vision isn't limited and I'm able to see the bright light at the end of the tunnel.

Have I told you that Barry is so in love with Iris? And Iris is- well you get it.
I'm becoming a teenage drama queen who's got ships sailing left, right and centre. However is it right of me to have strong hopeful ships sailing when we're being attacked?

Maybe not.

I've spent most of today with Cisco and Caitlyn in Star Labs, and it's getting pretty hectic. There are millions of samples we need to test, and we need millions of ideas to defeat zoom.

Trust me, this guy is a maniac.

Caitlyn is so afraid, and yet so upset, it makes me feel horrible, and sometimes I wish I could share some of her pain, so she'd be happier.

One of my dreams had Jay, or zoom in it. He called me his sister, but judging from the blood tests I took and compared (I'd found his blood reserve when Caitlyn was trying to create Velocity -9), we aren't related at all.

Which leads me to thinking deeper into the situation.

I can't tell anyone but you about this, it's far too serious. I'm afraid if I do say something, my own family and friends will think I'm one of them, and I don't want that happening.

On the other hand, I really don't want to lie to them anymore. I need to tell someone I can't handle some of these dreams anymore, and i need help.

I also dont want to risk bringing attention to myself, at such a crucial point.

Ugh. I'm too confused.

I'll probably tell Joe, considering the fact that I can completely trust the man who has brilliantly taken place as the most fatherly figure I've ever had.

I just hope he can help.

I gotta go now, Cisco will kill me if he doesn't see me working.

As I've read in a comic book somewhere," With great power, comes great responsibility"

And Cisco, is becoming way too responsible.

Excuse me, while I stop this.