Jenna came by my dressing room and asked what was going on. I couldn't tell her I almost kissed Josh. And I was excited about almost kissing Josh. I just wanted to sleep, but Jenna was so mad at me for leaving so abruptly and not answering the phone. All I could focus on was Josh though. Every time I tried to listen to her it just kept going back to Josh and I. "Tyler! Are you listening?" Jenna snapped me out of my thoughts, I don't want to hurt her. "I'm sorry, I'm just really tired lately. I really just need to get some shut eye." I really am tired so I'm not lying. But I don't know if I'll be able to sleep. Josh is all I can think about and I just don't want to think about him. Everything is happening so fast, we almost kissed twice but was interrupted both times. Maybe that's a sign. It has to be. Jenna left me when she realized I started drifting off. I fell asleep to the thought of Josh.
I don't remember what I dreamt but I woke up smiling, with Jenna next to me. "Sorry I was yelling yesterday. Well this morning." She leaned down and kissed me, that's when Josh walked in. Josh. I pulled away from Jenna looking straight at Josh, who had Debby behind him pulling him away. She knows. I could feel Jenna staring about me but I didn't care, I pushed up and went after Josh who was now halfway down the hall. "Josh." I chased him down, he turned around with tear filled eyes. I've never seen him so hurt. And the thought that it was my fault broke my heart. "I'm sorry," I walked towards him. "I don't know what to say." He wiped his face and backed away from me. "Tyler, what is going on?" I heard Jenna behind me, I yanked myself around. "Nothing." I turned back to Josh who was now gone. I frowned more. I looked back at Jenna who looked furious, I felt worse and worse throughout this day. I walked passed her back to my room. I locked myself in there.
