Our kiss ended and we had to head back. I needed to show Jenna this is real. I needed to show Josh, and myself for that matter. What i wasn't expecting was Debby being there, she was with Jenna. They were both smiling as if they were happy, happy for us. "Jenna," i said as i approached. "Tyler, I am actually happy for you. I mean, yes it hurts that you weren't happy with me but its always been Josh and i should've known that. Josh and you are made for each other and i wished i'd seen that sooner. Anyways, all my stuff is packed. I'll be leaving today. Debby is going to drive me home." I felt the hurt in her voice as she spoke and it broke my heart. She's making it out like i don't care for her, I do. I love her but i'm not in love. "You don't have to leave," i said looking at my fidgety hands. She doesn't have to, i don't want her to. My hands were twitching and i begin shaking. "Tyler, i need to leave. I'm happy for you. I am, but i'm not ready to see through to it yet. Maybe one day but not now, not after this." she grabbed my hands, "goodbye Tyler." And with that she was gone. I genuinely felt bad for her, she married me expecting a loving relationship. Not her husband coming out saying he's in love with someone else. That else being my best friend, who i never thought i'd be able to kiss and feel actual sparks. I should be sad, i should be chasing after her but i can't. I'm holding onto Josh's hand and i never want to let it go because i'm not scared anymore, everything feels safer being with Josh. I look over at Josh who was already looking at me, he grinned. His smile is so bright, its so contagious. I smile at him squeezing his hand. "I- I love you Tyler." He mumbled out, before i could respond i heard Mark hollering for us. They couldn't know yet, who knows what they would think. Josh was obviously thinking the same thing because he let my hand drop. He walked towards Marks voice and i followed pursuit. "Why is Jenna leaving?" Mark questioned as he looked out the window. I didn't answer, i mean how was i supposed to anyways. Mark turned to me and Josh, who was now at the window, "well?" He asked again. Michael walked in with Brad behind him. "Why is Jenna leaving ?" They asked at the same time. Oh good lord, i sighed louder than needed. "We broke up," I finally said. I can't quote exactly what the three were saying, just a lot of 'whys?' 'what happened?' and a crazy load of groans from Josh. This is our team, we can't hide it from them. I looked Josh in the eyes and he shook his head hard enough he could've been at a concert. Whatever. "I wasn't in love with her, yes i am fine, yes it'll be okay. Please stop asking questions." Everyone looked behind me, but why? I turned around and seen my mom. "Mom," i was surprised to see her. The show doesn't start for another four hours. "You and Jenna broke up? Why ? Because you finally admitted your deep desire for Josh?" She laughed as she said that, i laughed because that's exactly right. "Right." Josh said from behind me, "he wishes." With that he walked away. "Well, i'm here." My mom brought me out of my thoughts, i nodded at her comment. "We're going to be busy mom, setting up and stuff." I pointed towards the equipment and my eyes widened. "Maybe not?" I looked at Mark, "She called earlier and you deserve some time with your mom." I also then realized it was light outside. Time is flying around here, and i'll be running on no sleep. Great. I walked with my mom to the exit, "let's go." I said holding the door for her and smiling. I've missed this woman. She's the biggest reason i'm in music now. Thanks mom.
