Suck It Up Buttercup: Lionel Messi

XXII

Katrina just stared up at the ceiling in her bed, doing absolutely nothing, just thinking. Which if you knew Katrina well, you'd know that's never a good sign.

She'd think about Conor, she'd think about Leo, she'd think about Ryan, Kara, Alexandra, and so on.

She'd just sit and think until she gave herself a pounding headache. She didn't know why, but as a child she was just always like that, even through school, she could even hear her mother in her head

"Katrina my dear, if you keep picking at that brain you have you might explode"

"But maybe if I don't then I'll explode anyway. There's nothing bad about thinking it's just-"

"You have a wild imagination, even I can't tame it, but I know one day you'll use it to the best of your ability. In anything you do. Everyone likes thinkers, they're what makes the world go round. But right now sweetheart, at 3 AM on a school night, you don't have to worry about a thing."

And then she'd shut off her light and kiss her goodnight and that's the way it was.

Or the times that Conor and her gazed at the stars at night in his lame soccer mom van that his mom gave him senior year of high school. They were both kind of outcasts but they had each other's backs. She'd just sit in the back of the class with her hoodie on and some headphones and she was good to go. She always had a lipstick on, and that's the only way he could identify her by,  but he was okay with that. They were high school sweethearts, and that was okay too.

"So, whatcha thinkin bout'" Conor said, in a sing song tune, while laying in truck, feet hanging out in a field, cuddled up in the blankets.

He rephrased his statement "Or should I say what aren't you thinking about." Smiling over at her as she leaned in and laid on his chest

"Just stuff"

"Stuff? What kind of stuff?"

"I don't know, us, graduating, jobs, family, kids, pets, dogs, dog toys, nature, grass, birds, wings, food, earth, trees, flowers, dresses, the ocean, stars, the center of the universe-"

Conor laughed while cutting her off "Woah okay there, I got it"

She smiled "Well we can think and talk about anything you want darling." He pressed a kiss on her cheek and they just enjoyed each other's presence

Katrina welcomed herself back to reality as she still looked at the ceiling, like something was going to magically pop through it.

She thought about a recent comment on YouTube

"Does Katrina look more tired in her recent videos or is it just me?"

No it isn't just you StudMufffin88, I'm exhausted, I look like someone hit me with a truck and no concealer in the world could possibly cover my ugly ass up. Why do I loose sleep? Is it because I care too much? What is wrong with me? I just need to get back on track

She thought while glaring into the mirror out of the corner of her eye, still not moving her position on the bed.

She had nothing to do, she had filmed 6 videos in advance yesterday which means she didn't have to film for 6 weeks, unless she had a great idea. She just didn't feel fine, or okay, and it wasn't like she was acting like a badass video game character or something, she was just eh. She just felt... Unsettled

"Honey, honey, honey you'll be fine! I saw Conor today and he looked just adorable" her mom rubbed her shoulders. She wasn't too close to her dad so her mother would be walking her down the aisle.

Katrina took one last deep breath,"I think I'm ready, I don't know." She said. She knew she loved Conor, but something didn't sit right, there was so many people! What if something went wrong?

Of course now she had a completely different mindset, looking back she felt like a stuck up noob with her current personality screaming to let it out back in 2008 or so when they got married, It made her chuckle a bit

As soon as she walked out of that room, with her veil dragging behind her, she was certain of Conor and everything was perfect. Him, the dress, the ring, cake you name it it was just-

Her phone rang, bringing her out of her thoughts

"Hm" she answered

"Aye yo kitty. Can I call you that?"

"No" she said sternly

"Uh okay, well any way, I think Leo is having a mid life crisis

"Ney what the hell are you talking about, I don't have time for this, I have things to do I just-"

"No amigo, you don't understand, he's just been moping and whining and being an asshole!" Leo had an emphasis on asshole in his sentence

"So what we happened just fix it, he didn't pay me or tell me anything to say it but he's just being poop head so please just fix that shit."

Katrina sighed, she always had to make it right "Okay, I'll talk to him in a bit." She said, hanging up on Neymar before he could say anything else

A/N:
Hope you enjoyed, I also can't wait to read any updates from these lovely ladies, Kara_Lawrence and BeyHiveForLife cause I love them and they're the most lit ppl on the earth! XOXOXOXOXO ALSO ALSO ALSO I LOVE THAT PIC OF LEO. MIGHT BE ONE OF MY FAVS TBH