Falling for her/him

Chapter 10

Amanda's POV

I feel pain all throughout my body as I tell Simon that it's time for him to learn about what happened to me. Just thinking about it makes me want to scream and cry. I look him in the eyes and let out a sigh before speaking.
"It started right after BGT ended.

Flashback-Amanda's POV

I'm standing at Dennis's car with Simon waiting for Dennis.
"Can't wait for next year." Simon says softly.
"Me either. It will be very exciting to do!" I say slowly clapping my hands. Simon chuckles and then lets out a sigh. "What's wrong Si?" I whisper.

"I don't think you should be with Dennis." he says softly.

"He's not bad. He has his moments of being a guy but so do you." I say giggling.

"Ya true." he says agreeing.

"Don't worry about me Si. I'll be fine." I say patting his chest.

"Alright. Well I gotta go." he says wrapping his arms around my waist.

I wrap my arms around his neck and hid my face in the crook of his neck. "I'm gonna miss you Si." I say trying not to cry.

"I'll miss you too babe." he says rubbing my back.

"I love you Simon." I mumble.

"I love you too Amanda." he replies before letting me go and walking away.

"Ready to go Amanda?" I hear Dennis's voice say behind me.

"Oh jeez you scared the shit out of me Dennis." I say putting my hand to my face.
He lets out a laugh and opens my car door. I slide in and watch him get in on the other side. He starts and looks over at me. Leaning over he attaches his lips to mine but it doesn't feel right. Wrapping one hand to the back of his neck and lightly pull at the nape of his neck. He groans softly and then stops me. He chuckles before opening his mouth. "Wanna go to the bar?"
"Sure but I'm not gonna drink." I say smiling.
"Okay let's go." He says driving off.
Once at the bar him and I both walk in together and he instantly orders a beer. "Dennis come dance." I say pulling at his arm.

"Okay. Okay." he says walking behind me with his beer. I dance with him to the music and the music gets faster and before long I'm grinding against him while he's on his sixth beer. I haven't had one drop of Alcohol the whole night. Soon Dennis is pretty drunk so I decide to take us home. Once in the house Dennis ask a question I didnt think he would ask.
"You and Simon looked pretty cuddly before we left. What the hell was that about?"

"Oh nothing. Just hugged him and left with you." I respond even though I do have some feelings for Simon.

"Amanda that's a lie. I had a guy tell me he seen y'all making out." he says seriously.

"Dennis do you have any idea what your saying? Your drunk and says a bunch of bull shit." I say quietly.

"What you say bitch?" he says getting closer to me.

I back away begging him to go away and cool off and maybe get sober. He steps closer and slaps me across the face and then again and again. He beats me until I can barely stand and all I see is blood.

"If you ever touch that man again I'll kill you." he yells.
I lay in the floor in my own blood crying until everything turns black.
End of flashback

"From that day forward he got into drugs and was always beating me every day. And everyday I was cutting and harming myself until about a month ago he left." I say tears running down my face.

"So I'm the reason you got beat?" Simon says looking at me blankly.

"Si, no! Please don't blame yourself." I say crawling in his lap and wrapping my legs around him. He grabs my wrist and I look at his face looking for a reaction. I realize I haven't taken the make-up off that I've been hiding them with. I walk to his bathroom and wash my wrist as painful as it is to look at them I slowly walk back to Simon. I give him my wrist and then see a tear roll down his face. I slide my hands up to his face wiping the tear and making him look at me.

"Simon, it was never your fault. Dennis was just a drunk and druggie. But now I'm safe and it's okay." I say wiping the tears from his face.

I kiss his lips and it's one of the most passionate kisses I've ever shared with Simon. "No." he says pulling away.
"Amanda if it wasn't for me you wouldn't have went through this." he continues standing up.
"Simon don't." I say desperately. He turns around to walk away but I grab his forearm stopping him. I yank his arm and he turns around and looks at me with tear filled eyes. "What can I do to make you stay?"

"Show me this isnt my fault and prove to me that I wasn't the cause." he says.