Falling for her/him

Chapter 46

Simon's POV

-2 Days Later-

Once Amanda walks out of my room I begin to cry and my heart monitor beeps like crazy. A doctor rushes into my room and tries to calm me.

"Sir, if you have somebody you can go home with that can keep you calm I will release you right now." The doctor says softly.

"Yeah just uh... call David Walliams." I whisper.

"Listen I don't know what's going on but whatever it is you need to push it out of the way because its really effecting your healing process." He says kinda stern.

I nod my head and he leaves to call David. A nurse comes in and unhooks everything from me and changes my wrap. She gives me my jeans and a black shirt. I pull my jeans on and pick up Amanda's ring and slip it in my pocket. I pull my shirt on and hear knock at the door. I open the door and there's David with a small smile on his lips.

"Hello Simey." He says widening his arms out. 

"Hey David." I whisper.

"What's wrong?" He ask.

"Amanda broke up with me." I say looking down at my shoes.

"What? Why?" He asks in shock.

"She thinks she's causing to much pain for me. She wants me to take the kids and extract herself from my life." I say feeling tears fall. 

"Oh Simon." David says.

"I've got to get her back. I can't let her do this." I say softly.

-Next Year at BGT-

I drop off A.J. and Eric at the babysitters and then head to my first day back at BGT Studios. This is when I can get Amanda back. She hasn't talked to me since last year and Eric is always asking about Mommy. It's been hard without her but I've managed.

I pull in and recognize her car in the parking lot. I get out and jog inside. I'm by Alesha and David who both hug me and then I go to Amanda's dressing room. I knock on the door and after a few minutes is slings open to a beautiful Amanda. 

"S-Simon." She gasp.

"Amanda, it's uh been awhile." I say scratching my neck.

"Yeah just a bit." She says looking down.

"May I uh come in?" I ask.

"Uh Yeah." She says pulling the door open a bit more. I slide in and she shuts the door behind me. She turns around and puts her back against the door looking at me biting her lip.

She has the same effect on me she did when I first met her even when she bites her lip. I walk a bit closer to her and grab her hand.

"I've missed you Amanda." I whisper.

I see tears escape from her eyes and she pulls up both her sleeves on  her shirt. I look down and she has scars up and down her arms. I feel my face go warm and I hold back tears. I rub my finger over every scar and even realize some recent ones. I feel my breathing go unsteady and I look into her deep brown eyes and do the last thing I've wanted to do since she left. I crash my lips against hers and my hands move up to her face.  She pulls away and presses her hands to my chest.

"Simon, I'm to dangerous to be with you." She whispers.

"I like danger my love." I say putting my hands on her hips. She cracks a small smile and kisses me pulling me closer so there is no space between us. She tugs at the hem of my shirt and then pulls it over my head. I rub up and down her back and one hand slips under her shirt. I feel across her stomach and stop when I feel the same feeling as a scar. I lift her shirt and look down. There's an enormous scar across her stomach. 

"I didn't feel small enough or pretty so I cut across my stomach." She whispers. 

"Your so beautiful. Hot even." I chuckle.

She lets out a laugh and the worry crosses her face. "How is Eric and A.J.?" she asks.

"Well Eric is almost 4 and A.J. is gonna be one soon." I say.

"Wow I can't believe I missed so much." She says.

"If it helps Erics been asking for Mommy and A.J.'s first words were Mommy." I say.

"I missed A.J.'s first words." she gasps. I nod and she lets tears fall.

 "It's okay you don't have to miss anymore of it Babe."  I whisper.

"Babe?" She asks.

I pull out the ring I've carried around since she gave it back. "Please Amanda I need you back." 

"I...."