Falling for her/him

Chapter 44

Simon's POV

Once the nurse is done changing my wrap Amanda comes back in and I can't even put into words how sorry I am for her.

"I'm sorry." I mumble.

"Simon, don't." she says.

"Tell me please." I say looking at her trying not to break.

"Simon, I tried to get away." She whispers.

"I know." I mumble.

"I-I screamed for help but no one came." She started to cry. "I screamed for you Simon but I knew you couldn't come." She says beginning to sob.

"Babe, I'm so sorry I couldn't help you." I say reaching for her hand. She pulls away looking down at her hands.

"They held my hands down and force themselves inside of me." She cries. "They wouldn't stop no matter how much I screamed. Then one took out a gun and aimed it at me and began to shoot to scare me." She says her cries becoming silent.

I feel tears quickly running down my cheek and I can't even describe the pain I'm feeling. "I tried Amanda. I tried to get to you." 

"It doesn't matter." She says getting up and standing at the end of my bed. "It's over." She whispers looking down.

Amanda's POV

"It's over." I whisper looking down even though I know it's not over. In fact it's far from over for me. 

After a few hours Simon tells me to go home and rest for a bit. Once I'm home I drag myself inside everything starts to get worse and thoughts start Screaming 'He'll never love you anymore.' One says.

'Your just garbage to him now.' another says.

'Just die.' the other one yells. I feel the tears stream down my face and I need a release from this pin. I finally give in and run to the bathroom grabbing a razor. I hold it in my hands and stare at it for a few minutes before putting it to my wrist and cutting repeatedly until I can't feel anything. I sit in the floor letting the blood drip from my arms and the tears run on my face. Soon I clean myself up and lay down in mine and Simon's bed and close my eyes quickly falling asleep. I wake up screaming until I realize it's just a nightmare. I lay down and silently cry repeating Simon's name over and over. I finally give in and drive back to the hospital and walk to Simon's room. I walk in and there he is sleeping peacefully. I slowly walk over to him and climb into the hospital bed beside him and wrap my arms around his body soon falling asleep quicker than I did by myself.

Alesha's POV

While David's asleep I sit and read a book until I hear his footsteps. He wraps his arms around me and kisses me neck. 

"Good Afternoon." He says in his sexy morning voice.

"Did you sleep well?" I ask turning in his arms so I can look him in the eyes.

"Actually very well. But I can't stop thinking about what happened last night." He says looking down.

"You never did tell me what actually happened." I say.

"Alesha, Simon was stabbed and Amanda..." he freezes and looks past me.

"David, what about Amanda?" I say trying to get him to look at me.

"Amanda w-was raped." He chokes out.

"Oh my God no." I say feeling the tears well up. He quickly pulls me closer to him and holds me tightly. "I-is she okay?" I ask beginning to shake.

"She has trauma and she just wants Simon to be okay." He says softly and sits down and pulling me into his lap. I lay on his chest and think about the hell Amanda and Simon have suffered.

Simon's POV

I wake up to Amanda in my arms sleeping quietly. I told her to go home but she must have come back. I can't believe what she's dealing with. I think about to that night and it kills me inside. She screamed for me and I couldn't come for her and protect her. Our kids haven't even seen us and it's only been one night away from them. I need my kids. I need my fiance to be okay. I want us to get married as soon as I get released from the hospital. I look down at her and brush her hair out of her face. She looks so tired and scared. I wrap my arms tighter around her and promise to myself I'll protect her with my life no matter what. I'm rubbing her arms when her sleeve rises and I notice something. I slowly pull her sleeve up and there are cut marks.

"No." I gasp out and begin to cry until I can't feel anymore. My love is hurting herself so she doesn't have to suffer. I can't let her do this anymore. I won't let her do this anymore.