Amanda's POV
I wake up and stretch out a bit. I notice my sleeve is up and I quickly pull it down so Simon doesn't see what I'm doing. It would kill him if he knew the pain that I was inflicting on myself.
"Amanda." I hear. I look up and Simon's crying. I can tell he's been crying for awhile at the way his eyes look glazed over and his face is red.
"Si, why are you crying?" I ask putting one hand on his cheek.
"Why would you hurt yourself like you are doing?" He asks wiping away the tears.
"You weren't supposed to know." I mumble.
"Well I do and I want you to stop, and I want to..." He pauses.
"You want what?" I ask looking for an answer.
"I want us to get married when I am released which will be in 2 days." He says with a smile.
"Simon." I gasp out. He looks at me with hopeful eyes. "No." I spurt out.
"What?" He asked sounding like there's something in his throat.
"Simon, No. I'm causing to much pain and harm for you and I think it's best that I just remove myself from your life completely." I say quickly, even though this is killing me.
"Amanda." He stutters out.
"You can keep the kids. I think it will be for the better and I'll just go back to my house. I never moved out anyway. I just kept clothes at your place." I say fighting back tears.
"Amanda, please don't do this." He says grabbing my hand and beginning to cry. I quickly pull away and take off the ring he gave me and set it on the bed.
"I'm sorry Simon." I say and turn around walking out of the room. Once I'm out of the room I run to my car still fighting tears and speed to my house. I unlock the door and it's been so long since I've been here. The smell and look is nice to have back. I close and lock my front door and begin to sob.
"Why?" I ask myself out loud. I slide down the door and into the floor and scream Simon's name out.
'Just release.' I hear one of my demons say. I nod my head and slowly stand up and trudge to the bathroom with tears still silently falling. I dig through my draws and find a razor. I touch the cold, silver blade to my now pale skin and put pressure on my arm. I cut quickly and keep cutting until I feel no more pain. My body finally goes numb and I sit in the floor soon passing out.
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SUPER SHORT I KNOW!!! BUT IT'S ALL GOOD CAUSE IT WAS WORTH EVERY WORD. SORRY FOR BREAKING HEARTS
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Falling for her/him
FanficSimon and Amanda have been co-workers for awhile. In fact their best friends but they want more from each other. Will they go for it or will broken hearts and tears be the only trail left.
