Falling for her/him

Chapter 79

Simon's POV

I sit on the couch with Amanda asleep in my arms. I can't believe she came back after everything I said to her in the U.K. Telling her I didn't love her and that she was no longer important to me was so stupid. I hate myself for saying it. She is my world and when I left it was my stupidest move ever. It's only been one day since everything went down with Demi and I'm considering going home and letting someone else take my spot on the X Factor. Amanda and I aren't offically together yet but I plan on making it offical and taking her back home will help with that. I'm pulled out of my thoughts when Amanda starts moving and looks up at me with a smile.

"Hey, sleepy head." I whisper.

"Hey." she mumbles and kisses my lips softly. I kiss back and the feelings running through me are electrifying. It starts to get heated and we fall back on the couch, laughing at each other. I slide my hand up her shirt and she arches her back, trying to be as close to be as physically possible. She starts kissing down my neck and takes my shirt off.

"A-Amanda, s-slow down." I stutter and push her up.

"Why?" she asks, out of breath.

"We.....we aren't....together." I whisper.

"So, now we are." she whispers and tries to put her lips back to mine. I pull away a bit and feel a bit of anger rise.
"Simon, what's wrong?" she asks.

"We are not anything yet. I-it's not offical until we get to go home." I spit.

"Simon, we don't have to be home." she whispers.

"Yes we do!" I say sternly and then push her off of me. I push myself up and walk upstairs to the balcony so I can cool down. I don't know what just happened but I need everything to be perfect or else we won't work. I can't stand loosing her again. It would destroy me. I take in a deep breath and sit down at the edge so I can breath and think. I hear the door open and close and then a hand touch my back.

"Simon, what's going on?" Amanda whispers.

"Nothing." I reply back sharply without intending to.

"I don't understand what I did." she whimpers and lets me go. I hear her footsteps getting farther away and then the door opening and closing again. I finally walk back in and she is sitting on the bed with tears streaming down her face. I let a deep sigh out and sit down in front of her.

"Mandy." I whisper.

"Don't Simon." she whimpers and hides her face in her knees. 
"I think it's best that I leave." she mumbles.

"Mandy, no! You can't leave." I say quickly.

"I'm gonna leave Simon. It's best for both of us." she mumbles again.

"No! Y-you can't! Don't....I-I can't live without you! Please d-don't say that Amanda." I say, starting to hyperventilate. She grabs my hand and squeezes. She starts telling me to take deep breaths but I can't, not if she's gonna leave. My vision starts getting blurry and I begin to get dizzy.

"Simon, breath! I'll stay just please breath!" she yelps as I feel her body press against mine. I try to take deep breaths and after a few I'm finally calmed down enough to talk again.

"I'm sorry." I whisper.

"Why, did you flip out on me?" she asks.

"Because I just want everything to be perfect. If it's not then we won't work and you'll leave." I sigh.

"Si, that's not true babe. It doesn't matter where we are. It's always perfect." she whispers and kisses my cheek.

"Amanda, please I need you back. Wanna give it a second try?" I ask, holding her hands. She nods her head and smiles her big goofy grin. Our body's collide and I'm so happy. I finally have my true love back and I don't have to worry if another man's gonna whisk her away. She's mine and from now on she will always be mine no matter what.