Hell in my eyes!

Hell in my eyes! [Chapter 18: We can try...]

‘’You what?’’ I asked.  I was used to guys asking me out but it’s been so long ago. And there’s no way I can say yes. I mean he’s a very nice guy and all but it’s not gonna happen.

‘’Come here!’’ He said opening his arms.

What now… He thinks I’m gonna jump in his arms because he asked me out? What the hell is he expecting? But wait a minute… If I actually say yes and go out with him, then I’ll be out of the streets, won’t I? That’s a nice turn of events. And I’ll be able to see my Alex but I’ll hurt Lucian again, won’t I? But who cares…I at least don’t, that’s what I believe. I took small steps towards him and when I was so near to him, I stopped walking. Damn second thoughts but then again he grabbed my arm and pulled me into a hug. I didn’t say anything, just stood there like a statue before he spoke again.

‘’I’m in love with you and I mean it! I know sure as hell you don’t feel the same but we can try changing that, what do you think?’’ He asked kissing my eyes before looking deep into my eyes for a truthful answer.

Why the hell am I feeling like this? My heart hurts and I can’t bring myself to lie to him but I know I have to if I wanna see my Alex again. I have to make Alex jealous at Lucian’s Fashion show and there’s nothing better than me in Lucian’s arms. It will be a big hit in Alex’s eyes.

‘’We can try…’’ I said looking down.

But after at least five minutes like that he wasn’t answering so I looked up to see his eyes. When my eyes met his, I just… I don’t know how to explain it. He looked so happy, so cheerful but he wouldn’t speak. I blushed a deep shade of red and looked down again. He raised my chin with his hand and with his lips he took mine. I have to admit his kisses are addictive but I still want Alex and I have to get him. Am I obsessed with Alex lately? Now that I think about it, if I haven’t met Lucian at all then I wouldn’t be so obsessed with Alex but the fact that Aaron is Lucian’s nephew has me hooked.

‘’Thank you.’’ He said hugging me again. ‘’I promise you, you won’t regret it.’’ He said again.

I wanted to lighten up the mood so I thought I should answer kind of playfully, so here goes nothing!

‘’Why so serious?’’ I said sticking my tongue out for him but then he did something I didn’t expect. He took my tongue in his mouth, kissing me again but more passionately, more strongly. He pushed me against the wall and I have no idea for how long we’ve been making out. His hands travelled all over my body. When he sucked that sweet spot on my neck, I felt so hot. I wanted him right there. It’s crazy really how a guy I don’t love can make me so hot over him… It’s one of the things maybe I’ll never understand.

‘’Let’s go!’’ He said taking my hand in his and we started walking.

I didn’t ask where we were going but I knew that for the night I wouldn’t be out in the streets nor would I be cold at night and that’s all that mattered at the time.