Hell in my eyes!

Hell in my eyes! [Chapter 35: Please come back!]

Lucian’s POV

I just couldn’t believe her. After everything that had happened between us, she’d just been able to tell me to leave so easily. I would never have been able to do that. I would never have been able to tell Trisha to leave me. But she’d been able to do it. Clearly she didn’t like me as much as I thought she did. But if she wanted me to leave, then that was fine, I was leaving. The whole taxi ride I was desperately fighting my tears. But no way in hell was I going to cry in public in front of a stranger. No way. I was going to have to wait.

The flight was about eight hours. So I was going to have to just hold it together for at least eight hours before I could finally let myself feel my heartbreak and breakdown because of it.I paid the taxi and then quickly jumped out, grabbing the small bag that I’d originally come here with nearly nine months ago. It still held the same clothes that I’d come here with, too. I didn’t want any of the new clothes that I’d bought. They would just remind me of Trisha. And I didn’t want that. No, I was going to try my hardest to just move on. She didn’t want me around anymore then that was just fine, I wasn’t going to stick around. She wanted me gone, I was going. I entered the bustling airport and went over to the help desk.

“Hello, sir.” The woman behind the desk smiled. I shot her a weak one back, just to be polite. I sked when the next flight was and she told me in twenty minutes. I pulled out my wallet and my credit card to pay for my ticket. My flights were on the agency anyway, so that was fine.I handed her my credit card and she scanned it quickly.

“I just need your passport now.” She said and I quickly found it in the front pocket of my bag, where it had been since I landed in this very airport several months ago. I handed it to her as well and she opened it, read something and then nodded and handed it back. “Okay, that’s all gone through fine.”

She said, typing something on her computer. “Your tickets are just printing.” I smiled softly and nodded. She swiveled her chair around so she was facing behind her and pulled some sheets out of a printer. She then ripped along serrated edges, apparently separating them, and then passed them to me. “Okay, that’s all done.” She smiled at me. “Have a safe flight.” I smiled back and thanked her before heading over to check in.

Getting through the airport went relatively quickly. I didn’t even have to wait at the terminal, because the plane was already boarding by the time I got through security. I sat down in my seat which was next to the window and sighed heavily. The sun was reflecting off the tarmac of the runway and I squinted painfully and pulled the shutter down. All I wanted now was to go to sleep for the next seven hours. I didn’t doubt that I could do it. I closed my eyes and leant against the closed shutter. But then my phone started ringing noisily from my pocket and I sighed and quickly pulled it out. I glanced at the screen and considered not answering. But if I didn’t, I knew she’d just keep calling. I accepted the call, but then didn’t know what to say. Turns out, she didn’t need me to speak first anyway.

“Lucian?” Trisha asked desperately. “Are you there?”

“Yeah.” I said. My voice was low and rough, but I guess that was the result of holding in my emotions for over an hour.

“Where are you? Please come back, please. I didn’t…I didn’t mean it in the way you thought.” She said and I frowned. “I just…I…”

“I know what you meant.” I said, my tone flat and uninterested.

“You do?” She asked. She sounded relieved, but anxious at the same time.

“Yeah, you wanted me to leave…” I said and I heard her take a breath to speak, but I continued before he could. “And I’ve left. I’m on a plane and I have to go now. Bye, Trisha and you can have the house as a gift.”

“Lucian, wait-‘’ I cut her off quickly by ending the call.