Paper Airplane [s.m]

Eighteen

"It's time for school Roni. Aunt June went to the school last night and picked up your phone. It's on the kitchen counter." Daisy explains as I am getting out of bed. I nod and throw on leggings and a loose sweater. I'm just feeling very drowsy today. Not just tired, exhausted.

I shuffle around the apartment and get ready, grabbing my phone before I leave. I have several texts and missed calls from all my friends and Shawn. I even have some from Dylan. I read Dylan's first because I'm curious.

Dylan- Savanna broke up with me, maybe we could work something out?

It literally makes me sick reading the message. How could somebody be so arrogant. I wonder if Savanna knew he was cheating on me with her. I bet she knew. They were probably just friends with benefits and he got attached. Sounds like something Dylan would do.

I know Savanna from school. She's a year above us so she's supposed to be in college now. I don't think she was focused on school enough to go to a good college. She spent her 4 years of high school sleeping with every guy that lived in our town.

I take a seat in my first class and read through Shawn's messages.

Shawn- hey.

Shawn- did I say something wrong?

Shawn- are you mad at me?

Shawn- please call me Roni.

Then there's a missed call from Shawn and no other attempts to contact me. He probably gave up. Thalia walks in hold Reggie's hand. She sees me and throws his hand to the side. She runs up to me and hugs me tightly.

"In so sorry, to be honest I didn't believe he had a girl either. I didn't mean to set you up for that." She says into my hair while hugging me.

"It's okay Thalia." I tell her and lean my head on her shoulder. Reggie sits down as we are releasing each other.

"Yeah I'm sorry too Roni." He tells me.

"Why are you all so sorry. I'm fine. I was gonna start dating too anyways." I shrug.

"Like we said, your in love with him." Thalia says like she's scared I'll punch her.

"I'm not in love with Shawn." I roll my eyes. They just want some drama in the group. Or maybe it's because they hate me being the only single one in the group.

"Sure Jan." Alex says and makes the face from the gif. We all start to laugh, despite them all being against me.

I'm not in love with him. I just got out of a relationship and it takes a long time to develop love. I didn't even love Dylan and I dated him for over a year. It's not even possible for me to be in love with Shawn. Plus, now he's seeing someone so it doesn't even matter.

I take out my phone and realize I'm about to text Shawn. A wave of emotion washes over me that makes me frown. My stomach turns and I stare at the black screen of the phone. I slide it back into my back pocket without texting him.

Jade, who was sitting next to me saw the whole thing. She frowns at me, knowing exactly what just happened.

"Maybe you should meet his girlfriend." Jade says.

"Girlfriend?" I choke. I didn't know it was that serious. Everybody glares at Jade.

"I just mean that it may give you closure." Jade says. There's a sadness in her voice and I know she feels bad for me.

"I don't need closure! I'm not in love with him!" I exclaim angrily.

"Okay but you still need to know that ignoring him isn't getting you anywhere." She snaps back.

I think about what it would be like to invite Shawn and his girlfriend to the roof. The roof is the only possible place because I want her to get cold and maybe a bit miserable. I'll have a nice warm coat and some knock-off-brand UGG boots. She'll probably be in a t-shirt and sandals. I laugh at the thought. Why would anyone be in a t-shirt and sandals in November?