Paper Airplane [s.m]

Nineteen

It's been a week since I found out about Shawn and his new girlfriend. I've also thought about inviting them both over, however I can't think of a scenario where I don't throw her off the roof. I haven't talked to Shawn since he gave me the news. He texts me everyday but I don't reply.

I don't know what this is, but it's controlling my every thought. All I ever think about is Shawn with some girl that's prettier than me. She's probably perfect. She probably has a flawless face and smooth flowing hair. I look at the mirror and see my frizzy hair. It's naturally straight but it's not smooth or pretty at all. It was shoulder length but I haven't gotten it cut since I moved here last month. I look at my face and see a pimple forming on my forehead. I bet she has perfect skin too. Maybe even prominent cheek bones. 

I have to see her, it's killing me not knowing. I just want to see if she's prettier than me. I don't know why I feel like this is a contest. Usually I don't care at all what people think of me. If I see a pretty girl I just think 'damn girl you slay'. But thinking about Shawn with a pretty girl makes me want to either throw up or throw myself out my window. 

I finally pick up my phone and text Shawn. All these feelings aren't jealousy, there just me looking out for a friend. Making sure he doesn't have a girlfriend prettier or smarter than his friend is important.

Roni- hey.

Shawn- oh my god Veronica. Hi.

Roni- um I have a question.

Shawn- okay ask.

Roni- do you and your girlfriend want to come over to hang out?

Shawn- what? Why?

Roni- I want to meet her :)

I feel like adding a smile would take away his suspicion. Let's just say that if she does something I don't like, she'll be flying off of a building.

Shawn- oh yeah of course, we'll come by the roof at 1

Roni- okay see you then :)

Another smiley face.

I start to get ready because it's 11am now. I'll need to get a shower and do my hair and maybe apply some concealer. I should also contour because I don't know about her cheek bones yet. Wait I don't even know how to contour. Okay so concealer is as far as I'll go.

By 12:45 I'm on the roof. I know he won't be late because he's never late. I guess it's a gift. I'm always late to everything. I can either be 20 minutes early or 30 minutes late. I can never be on time.

Shawn shows up right on time and his girlfriend is standing behind him. I just smile at Shawn because it still feels a bit awkward.

"This is Savanna." He says and brings her beside him. All the air is sucked out of my lungs. She stares at me with a knowing look. She doesn't want me to tell Shawn. Well guess what bitch, you stole my boyfriend once you won't do it again. Wait no Shawn's not my boyfriend. Okay maybe I wish he was but that's not the point here.

"You little skank." I narrow my eyes.

"Veronica!" Shawn scolds me. I only glare at him.

"You couldn't just stick to Dylan? You had to take Shawn too?" I ask her.

"I don't know what you mean." She giggles. Savanna is beautiful. She even has the perfect little laugh.

"Bitch you know exactly what I mean. How did you even find Shawn? Are you stalking me?" I ask her.

"Shawn she's being rude." Savanna whines. Shawn only glances at her and then looks at me to see what I'll do next.

"I hate you so much. You fucked all the guys in Arizona so you needed a fresh batch. Did you sleep with Shawn yet?" I know I'm being sort of harsh but this is the second time and the last time she will steal my man.

"No I haven't slept with Shawn yet, do you think I'm a whore?" She exclaims.

"Yes." I answer with my most serious face.

"Your just upset because Dylan only wanted to get in your pants. When you wouldn't let him, he ditched you for me." She laughs evilly. At least it sounded evil to me.

I look down at the ground with tears brimming my eyes. No matter how much I try to be a strong and independent woman, it hurts to know that after a year of being with someone, they still don't care. Shawn finally gets what happened between us and backs away from Savanna a bit.

She was standing there with a smile on her face. Her beautiful face. She had a perfect completion and long black hair. It was so straight and smooth, I almost wanted to reach out stroke it right then.

I stand with my head tall and tell her straight to her face, "I hope you find someone who loves you regardless of how good you are in bed."

"You're just jealous." She laughs but you can tell she's hurt.

"I'd never be jealous of you." I say. That's not necessarily true but we can go with that for now.

She only pouts and grabs Shawn's arm. They leave together. I kind of hoped Shawn would tell her to leave and then stay with me. I knew that wasn't going to happen but I still had hope.

I frown in the elevator and then walk into my apartment. Thalia is sitting on my bed when I enter my room. I am confused before Reggie walks out of my closet holding a sweater up to his chest.

"Do you think I could pull this off Thalia?" He asks and the looks up. He drops it when he sees me and smiles sheepishly. I'm even more confused when Alex and Jade pop out from behind my bed.

"What the hell?" I say looking at all of them.

"You accidentally called Alex and she heard your whole conversation. We got here as quick as we could." Thalia explains.

"Okay." I say and sit on my bed next to Thalia.

"I'm so sorry." She hugs me. Everyone is so sorry lately.

"Did Shawn break up with her?" Reggie asks.

"No." I look down.

"I'm sorry but Shawn is just stupid." Alex shakes her head.

My phone starts to ring and I look down at it. Shawn.

"Answer." Thalia says.

"Hello?" I answer.

"Hey it's Shawn." He says.

"Yes I know." I laugh.

"I wanted to let you know that I am sorry. I didn't know she was the Savanna that stole Dylan from you." He explains.

"It's alright you can date her if you really like her." I tell him.

"I don't really like her." He laughs.

"So why were you dating her?" I ask him.

"To make you jealous." He laughs nervously. I almost 'awe' out loud. Even though I didn't, everybody else in my room did.

"Well did you break up with her?" I ask him.

"Yes I did." He tells me.