Paper Airplane [s.m]

Twenty

I think about what Shawn said all day. 'I did it to make you jealous.' Does that mean he likes me? I think I like him but I don't know what he means by that. I don't want to be too eager to start something right after we've both broken up with people.

I wonder why Savanna came all the way to New York just to steal Shawn from me. She'd have to pay for a hotel and a plane ticket and get a job. What is wrong with her?

It's almost midnight now and I can't sleep. I take out my drawing journal and the first thing I see it my drawing of Shawn. I liked him then and I didn't even know. I pick up my pencil and start to draw the city behind him. I need to add color to this somehow. Maybe paint? No, I don't want to possibly ruin it. I'll use colored pencils.

I grab various colored pencils and start to color in the night sky. The sky takes so long. When I'm done just the sky, I'm exhausted. I'll continue this tomorrow. I leave the notebook open on my desk and climb into bed.

I wake up and he next morning and roll out of bed. I literally roll out of the bed onto the floor. I accidentally fall back asleep on the floor.

"Roni." Daisy says shaking my shoulder.

"Roni get up!" She screams when I don't budge. I jump up and bump my head into her nose.

"I hate you." She mumbles leaving the room, with her hand on her nose.

I get up and get dressed for school quickly. I'm gonna be late if I don't hurry. Actually I don't really care about being late but my Aunt does.

School is just as boring as it is everyday. I have work tonight so maybe I'll see Shawn. I just saw him yesterday but I want to see him everyday.

On my walk to work, all I can think about is sitting against a wall and talking to Shawn for hours. I walk through the hotel doors with a smile on my face. It is quickly replaced with a frown when I see at least 10 people in the lobby.

"Finally! Roni, help me with this stuff!" Alex exclaims from the left of me. I immediately put on my uniform and get to work. We fold towels and sheets for about an hour before we take around a cart and put them in all the rooms.

"No you get that corner." I tell her holding my side of the sheet down.

"This one?" She asks.

"No!" I say before the sheets roll away from her. We both sigh but she's grinning.

"Here I'll get this." I say and lay across the bed, holding down all the sides.

"Now pull the sheets over the side of the bed. She nods and goes to each side, doing what I told her to do.

I finally sigh in relief and release my hands and feet. I hear a squeal from Alex before I'm cocooned in sheets. She bursts out laughing and I can't help but join her.

We have to call another guy to help us with the sheets.

"Why can't you put sheets on a bed?" He asks, laughing, while he fixes our mess.

"I don't know." Alex starts to giggle relentlessly. I can't help but giggle with her. I think she may have had a cup of coffee before this. She can't handle caffeine very well.

"Thank you Lucas." She says using his full name. He blushed and I immediately frown.

"Thanks Luke." I say as he leaves the room.

"Alex." I say sternly.

"What?" She says with a smile before she sees my face.

"Luke likes you." I say and pinch the bridge of my nose. New York is so dramatic, this kind of stuff would never have in Arizona.

"No he doesn't." She frowns.

"He just blushed when you said 'thank you'." I tell her.

"He did?" She asks looking sad. He's a great friend but she's in a relationship and she's gay. He has no chance.

We just go on with the rest of work in mostly silence. We laugh at a few things and Alex accidentally puts a stack of towels in the bathtub.

"Those don't go there." I laugh and point at the tub.

"What?" She asks and then starts laughing when she sees what she's done.

By the end of the day I don't see Shawn once. We pass his room and I frown at the door. Alex, all in a swift motion, pushes me at the door and I make a loud bang. I fall to the floor and stare at her in question. The door flings open and Shawn looks at me on the floor. I smile and laugh nervously. I wasn't planning on this happening.

"Um are you okay?" He asks, concerned.

"Yup." I say and jump to my feet. When I rise I'm only a few inches from Shawn's face. I back away and tuck my hair behind my ear. I'm pretty sure I'm the only one being awkward.

"Okay bye!" Alex says and leaves us alone in front of his hotel door.

"You can come in." He chuckles. I smile and enter his room. I've only been in here once, to deliver room service. Even though I was nervous then, I'm even more nervous now. Why am I nervous? Maybe because I just now admitted my feelings to myself. I see him completely different now.

"I'm leaving New York." He blurts out.

"What?" I choke.

"I'm leaving tomorrow morning." He tells me.

"Why didn't you tell me before now?" I ask frantically. We don't have much time left together.

"Because I didn't want to worry you." He says, looking to the ground.

"I don't have any time!" I exclaim. I wanted to tell him how I felt and I can't now that he's leaving. This is so frustrating, why can't he just move here?

"Any time for what?" He asks just as frantically, stepping closer. I look up at him with an expression I can't explain.

"Shawn I think I'm in love with you." I surprise myself when I say it. I had never considered me loving him until just now. I know I love Shawn. This is much more intense than a crush. His jaw drops slightly but he doesn't say a word. I turn around and leave the room.

He doesn't stop me.

When I leave the hotel, Alex is leaning against the brick wall. She smiles and walks up to me. She frowns when she sees my expression. I'm guessing she expected to see a smile but my expression is blank. I don't know how to feel. I just confessed my love for him and he didn't say anything.

"What's wrong?" She asks placing a hand on my arm.

"I'm in love with him and now he knows it." I say.

"Did he reject you? I was sure he liked you." She frowns.

"No he didn't say anything." I tell her. Alex looks confused but she doesn't say anything else. We go back to my apartment after that. She said everybody else is coming over a little later. We can't go to the roof because it's too cold now. I'm not used to the freezing weather of New York yet.