Paper Airplane [s.m]

Fourteen

When I wake up my head is pounding. I got way too drunk last night. All I remember is dancing and drinking. I'll just ask Shawn if I did anything embarrassing.

I have school and I'm hungover at 6am. Some pain medication will make this okay. I swallow some pills and get dressed. I'm pretty sure I put on sweatpants and a stained t-shirt but I honestly don't care right now.

Daisy laughs at me and makes some snarky comment but I ignore her and leave for school. I wait in silence for Thalia to walk into class. I see Reggie enter and Thalia follows. I look down to their joined hands and smile. I think they are going to sit together before Thalia takes her normal seat next to me. I want to say something to her but I'm too tired.

"Are you okay?" She asks me with furrowed brows.

"I'm hungover." I say quietly. We can't have a teacher here us and say something to my aunt. My aunt would probably just say she doesn't care. She's not irresponsible, she's just very lenient.

"Did you go get drunk at that party?" She asked me.

"Yeah. I don't know what I was thinking." I say and hold my head in my hands.

"Well happy Halloween." She tells me. I nod and hum in response.

By lunch time I can finally think straight. I only drink a bottle of water and listen to the conversations around me.

"Oh my god Roni." Thalia nudges me.

"What?" I ask her.

"What if you kissed Shawn?" She jokes.

"Haha very funny." I tell her and roll my eyes. Bad idea. Rolling your eyes with a head ache hurts.

Even though she was joking, what if I did make a move on him? Would he have turned me down if I did? I'd hope that if I was drunk he would tell me no. I'll just text him jokingly and see how he reacts. I'm curious now.

Roni- did I do anything weird last night??

Shawn- like what do you mean?

Roni- like kiss anyone?

Shawn- um why?

Roni- idk I'm just curious.

Shawn- we have to talk.

Well that answers that question.

"Thalia." I say and hand her my phone. Her eyes widen and her jaw drops as she reaches the end of the messages.

"Roni. This is bad." She tells me.

"I cheated on my boyfriend." I say with tears brimming my eyes. Why would I do that? He would never do something like that to me. I'm such an awful person.

After school I go straight to work. I had to go in a little earlier so I just packed my work clothes in my school bag. Shawn is basically living at the hotel right now so we can talk then.

"Hey Roni." He pokes my shoulder as I'm folding a towel.

"Hi Shawn." I smile.

"So we have to talk." He sighs.

"Yes I know." I nod.

"You were drunk and I stopped you right away." He tells me.

"I know but I shouldn't have done it. You should have stopped me before I did it." I tell him.

"I didn't know what you were doing." He defends himself.

"If my face approaches your face that's pretty obvious that I was going to kiss you." I roll my eyes.

"Hey, you're the one that made the move." He says and points at me to make his point.

"I was drunk Shawn! I'm such an awful person." I say and look down. If I look at him again I'll start crying.

"I can't believe I cheated on my boyfriend." I say with a tear rolling down my cheek. I look up at him and he suddenly looks angry. Did I say something wrong?

"It's fine you were drunk." He shakes his head.

"No it's not fine. Dylan would never do this to me. He's been loyal since day one. I'm a horrible girlfriend." I rant. Shawn seems to be getting angrier.

"I can't even go to a party with cheating on me effing boyfriend." I exclaim throwing my hands into the air.

"He's cheating on you." Shawn sighs.

"What the hell? Why would you say that?" I question. Now I'm a bit angry.

"He really is, at the party he texted you thinking you were a girl named savanna and called her babe and sent a wink and everything." He explains. My tears overflow onto my cheeks and my lip quivers. I know he's telling the truth. Why would he make this up?

"Why didn't you tell me?" I ask, whimpering when I finish talking.

"I told him to tell you it I would." Shawn says. I nod. Suddenly Shawn's arms are around me and my head is on his chest.

"I'm so sorry Roni, he was an idiot to do something like that to you." He tells me. I nod slightly and grab his shirt to steady my shaking hands.

"Can I go home?" I mumble.

"But you have work." He says.

"I don't care, Gina with understand." I tell him. Gina's my boss. I saw her my first day to pick up my uniform and sometimes for company meetings. I don't know why they need the maids at the company meetings but they do.

Shawn nods and leads me outside. We walk all the way to my apartment building with his arm around my waist and my hands gripping his shirt. I probably look like a swamp rat but I don't mind if Shawn sees that.

"Bye Roni." Shawn says and hugs me.

"No please stay." I plead in his ear. Even though I'm not short, I still have to stand on the tip of my toes to reach his ear. And he's also bent down a bit to hug me.

"Okay but you have school tomorrow so I can't stay for long." He tells me. I celebrate internally but stay calm and collected on the outside. I don't know why I was crying so much, in usually not that emotional. I guess because I was with him for over a year and he had no respect for me the whole time.

"It's Halloween so we could watch a scary movie or something?" I suggest.

"You sure?" He asks.

"I don't think there's a horror movie that I haven't watched Shawn. I'm all good." I tell him. He laughs and we put in 'The Conjuring'. It's not even that scary but it's still a good movie.

I fall asleep before the movie is over. All that crying made me tired I guess?