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~Worried~

Irene's P.O.V.

After I had dinner with Mr. and Mrs. Song, I decided to stay here for a night since we don't have any classes tomorrow. I just wanted to make myself less tired from either driving and travelling from one place to another by hailing a cab, it was very hastle and tiring for a girl like me since I'm not an outdoor person. I usually go out when I need to buy a thing or the materials needed for a project in school.

And now, here I am, sitting on the bed where Slater's room was just beside mine. Then my mind started drifting to him. Doesn't he knows how to eat? All he ever did is to stare at the blank space and cry, I could hear him sobbing sometimes even when I just passed by his door. He was very broken and I could sense that in his aura, his mom told me not to worry about him, but can you force me? I, myself tried so hard to stop worrying about him. But my mind keep on drifting towards him.

"Why are you even worried about him?" I asked myself, oh god Irene, you're alreadly crazy. Why does it seemed like I've been thinking about him for the whole time? The last thing I remembered is that I was done cleaning the sink and the plates but then I immediately walked inside my room, which is the guest room and sat on my bed. It's been an hour and yet the only thing that's working and passing on my mind is his name? I wasted an hour just thinking and worrying over him? Am I dufus right?  I need a neurologst to check my brains, something must've planned that with ne.

"He's not even a family member or my boyfriend, why am I acting like a worried sick girlfriend suddenly?" I asked myself and that's when I shooked my head. Girlfriend? Really? Girlfriend? I didn't know that she was actually my boyfriend, I was suddenly overwhelmed by my own question to myself and too exagerated. I stood up from the bed and kept on mubling things, only I, can understand. I walked in a circle and kept on walking and walking while my mind is still pretty occupied by the man in the next room beside me.

"What's wrong with you Irene?! Can't you just stop thinking about him? He practically tried to diss you earlier!" I tried to remind to myself about his answers to me earlier, it was like I already pushed his limits of hatred on his body. I know I shouldn't interfere with anyone's personal life, but you can't blame me. I'm the one who got worried at the man in the rokm beside me and that is why I was a bit weary and worried for him at the same time with his family members and parents. I know they were having a hard time dealing with Slater.

"I hate this! I- Mrs. Song" I was walking around in circles when I noticed Mrs. Song peeking at my door, she was smilling at me and waited me to compose myself and to present myself freely and completely. I opened the door for her, wide enough to let her in and has a talk.

"Did I interrupt you?" She asked with the same smile on her face, I don't know why she's visiting me though. I already finsihed doing the dishes and cleaning the sink dor her, she should be resting by now.

"N-no, I'm sorry. Would you want anything?" I asked her as I tried to comb my hair since I was talking to myself like I'm in a allysum.

"No, I was just checking on you. You were shouting so I came here to ask why, now I now why so you can continue" My cheeks flustered and turned pink, embarassed by the fact that I need to keep my voice don whenever I talk to myself. I need to have a mental note about that or else , everyone would really think that I'm a patient who had just escaped mental.

"I-I, Mrs. Song, it's not what it seems like, I'm not mad at your son..." I tried to explain, but she crossed her arms above her chest and stared at me as if she's my mom.

"Just irritated a bit" I admitted since I couldn't really make a lie.

"The two of you really reminds me of me and my husband, we we're once in the same place as you and Slater." Same place? In this house? Where I'm stepping at and where Slater is sleeping on? Same place? I was looking at her with full anticipation that she would tell me everything or might even elaborate and explain one thing to me. She looked at me and immediately knew that I was troubled by the words she said.

"The only advice I could give you is to follow this and this" Mrs. Song said as she pointed at my brain and at my heart. I was confused, mom once told me that the heart and the mnd doesn't believe the same thing, my mind always thinks about it's principles while the heart always thainks about it's love. My mom once told me, the heart shouldn't control the mind but in some desperate measures sometimes, let your heart control your mind. For it will lessen the pain and forgive the person who hurted you.

"They will know what to do" Mrs. Song uttered, I looked at her in comeplete distress, I do not know what she is talking about. She just chuckled when she saw my face and sat beside me, once, the mind and heart can form one decision, and that is by giving that person you trust. Trust in love, trust in faith. They will eventually have the same answers if you choose then both. You need to value them no matter how hard and wasted you are.

"Very well, I'll take my leave now. Goodnight sweetie" Mrs. Song planted a kiss on my forhead and headed outside of my room. My mins is still recalling the things she told me today, I couldn't understand them still but I know, that one day, I will be able to know what she wants to teach me.

"Now I sounded like a crazy person infront of Mrs. Song" I shrieked in annoyance and stared at my reflection on the mirror, I was blushing like crazy and I don't even know why. I stared at my eyes on the mirror and somehow, my mind drifts off to the person who had those sad and pained eyes. He was Slater. I saw how emotional he can be in terms of his love. He was very devoted and passionate. I'd love to find a person as passionate, devoted and loving like him. But if I were his girlfriend, i'd be happy in heaven once I saw him being happy with the person he loves. I want him to move on and find his present self. He needs to know how to let go and move on, he needs to learn on how to defend himself from the pain he's all keeping inside. He should let someone enter his life again, to let him understand and know what true love is.

"Irene, snap out of it!" I told myself as my talk suddenly driffted towards love this time. It felt like I'm a futurist when I'm not. I'm not a love expert but I don't know how those wise words came from my mouth, one thing was also bothering me... why do I  even want to think and get worried for Slater? He's just a nobody aside from my friend right? He can't be more than that, it'll be only confusing... but what if... what if I do??...