Empty

~Broken~

Irene's P.O.V.

I groaned in pain as I slowly woke up from my sleep, I was still feeling light headed and hazy as if I wasn't able to rest more. My head is still aching and my eyes are still blury, but in the midst of my silent surroundings, I could still recognize one person even if my head is a mess.

"Slater-" I weakly called him asking for his attention, I then once realized that I'm in a hospital ward where Slater might possibly already know what's wrong with me. What's my sickness. That's why I could see his eyes tearing up but his fist tightly clenched.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked calmly, I wasn't able to answer him as all the memories of him being an introvert came into my mind again. I couldn't answer him knowing that I'll bring another heart ache in his world... but my silence just made an angry dragon from a calm puppy...

"Why didn't you tell me that you were sick all along?! How can you act as if you're perfectly fine when you're already hurting inside?!" Different and numerous emotions ran inside my brain as I began to cry with Slater in frustration as I cannot explain what I'm feeling inside. I don't know how to tell him all the pain I've kept just to make him happy...

"Slater, listen to me-"

"You know how and what I felt when I learned that Heather is going to die! You know how much I hate knowing that you have secrets that are not meant for me to know! Why did you lie! Of all people Irene! You of all people know how I feel!"

"Are you even going to tell me that you have brain cancer?! Or you'll just break up with me for no reason and just die by yourself?!" This time he exploded, he's angry but is also emotional. I understand what he feels but he should also know what I'm feeling.

"I hid from you because I know you'll react like this, I just knew that I have cancer after I decided to say yes and be your girlfriend. I was still in the early stage so the doctor just prescribed me to drink the medicines she's going to give me" I couldn't just break up with him or tell him immediately that I'm going to die... I built his new happy world and now, if I'm going to tell him my sickness... then I would destroy the world I built for us...

"Why don't you want to do the operation? Irene you know very well that you can have more percent of surviving" Operation... that's the only treatment I could ever possibly try to survive, to live...

But... Heather...

"Because I'm scared"

A tear ran down on the pillow as I cried, the once brave and outgoing Irene everyone knows suddenly disappeared and a scared on appeared. Someone who doesn't know how to handle things...

"Because I know that I may also have the same fate was Heather, that I may also leave you and let you be broken  just what like she did" I was crying, not because there's a possibility that I'm going to die. But because I will leave Slater here alone in this cold world once I do the operation, I might die...

"This isn't about me Irene, this is about you! This is about your health and not about me!" Shouted him, he was furrious but I was still calm... I love him and I'm going to love him until the end... this is the only thing I could do for him... atleast before I die...

"Can you blame me that I don't to ever want to leave you again? I just want you to be happy Slater, I want you to feel loved and all. I love you Slater"

With a loud bang from the door, the room began to get quiet as the shushed cries of mine was the only thing heard. Slater storms off the room and left me alone and afraid...