unlovable

part 17

[caleb's pov]
cody & i were talking when we saw her move slightly. my heart stopped.
then, she opened her eyes & sat up, taking a huge breathe. i immediately hug her, rubbing her back softly. she came back to me.

[vanessa's pov]
i barely had a chance to catch my breathe.. the amount of things i felt in that moment was insanity. everything was coming back to me. i also noticed i was in a hell of a lot of pain. awesome. this is so much better than the other side! thanks, family!
when i feel caleb's familiar strong arms wrap around me.. suddenly, all the pain in my body disappears and i can just feel him.
my mind replays everything i've just experienced.
i'm here because.. the car accident.
which-- wait a second.
caleb? caleb is hugging me.
i'm holding onto caleb.
he's with janice, though. not me.
i fake cough & disconnect our hug, as much as i'd like to stay in his arms.. it's not my place anymore.
"hi, caleb." i whisper.
he looks at me in confusion. he's probably thinking 'what the hell!?' whoops.
then, i see cody. he stands in front of the hospital bed, in shock.
it takes a minute for me to process the fact that caleb has now met him. i hope they didn't fight or something.
"get over here." i motion to cody.
he comes over quickly, pulling me in a hug. it's gentle, yet secure.
i breathe him in.
"are you okay? how are you feeling?" he asks.
i feel caleb's eyes on me. on cody & i.
i see his jaw clench in the corner of my eye.
"i'm not in too much pain, i went through so much while i was away, but i'm okay." i smile & lean up, giving cody a quick kiss.
he smiles & sits on the edge of the bed.
caleb clears his throat and sits on the other side of the bed.
i giggle at the tension between them.
this shit is pure comedy gold.
i sit up taller & cross my legs, waiting for one of them to speak.
they don't.
i sigh, "how long have i been away?"
cody looks at caleb. i take a sip of water from the tray next to my bed.
"about a week." caleb replies.
i almost spit out my water, "a week!?"
it only felt like 4 days.
caleb just nods. he keeps one hand protectively on my thigh. i would push his hand away but i don't have the energy right now.
i notice the table behind them both.
"oh my god. that's the first thing i smelled when waking up. who is everything from?" my eyes scan over the table. six vases of flowers, mostly roses & some other little gifts.
my eyes fill with tears. i guess i didn't hear everyone who visited.
"the biggest vase of red roses is from me, the second biggest is from cody.." i pause for effect, "the daisies are from your grammy, the 3 roses are from your parents, the lillies are from your cousins and the mixed vase is from the hospital's nurses." caleb looks back at me, smile on his face.
it's good to see him smiling.
"that's so sweet.. wow." i dry my tears.
cody stands up, "hey, i'll be right back. i'm going to let the doctor know you're awake."
he leans over and kisses my forehead, earning a grunt from caleb.
as soon as he leaves the room, i'm the first to speak.
"so, how's janice?" i smile.
"don't even start right now, vanessa. i missed you so much. i've visited every single day. i talked to you & stayed by your side. cody didn't even know you were in here until today. i didn't even know he existed." he explains.
"yeah, you're the one talking. you have janice, remember? you made your decision clear."
"are you kidding? i still have feelings for you, vanessa. i still love you." he mumbles.
"yeah, you loved me enough to find someone new in .2 seconds. i don't know what to say right now, caleb." i take a deep breathe.
just as caleb is about to speak again, i hear a knock at the door.
the doctor comes in, "so lovely to finally meet you, vanessa. how are you feeling?"
i put on my best smile.
"i'm doing great, dull pain but surprisingly-- i'm doing well. this stupid cast doesn't make me happy, though." i throw in a laugh so he knows i'm just joking around.
he laughs, too. good.
the doctor continues to type on his computer.
"when can i go home?" i ask, politely.
"we want to keep you overnight to make sure you're stable, but tomorrow you are free to go." he replies.
i'm kind of excited to go home. i miss my cat.
cody walks in the room & hands me my phone. it has a few cracks on the bottom, but somehow it made it out.
"thank you." i smile.
when i turn it on, there's hundreds and hundreds of notifications. holy shit.

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[cody's pov]
my girl just woke up & i'm feeling so happy.
i know caleb doesn't like me very much, and i very much share the same feeling towards him.
the fact is, he let her go.
he said goodbye to an amazing girl who only loved him, who just wanted him.
i helped her. i gave her love when she needed love.
i made her happy. i continue to make her happy.
she got in a car accident.. but vanessa is a good driver.
i'm not going to be sorry for any of this.
fuck caleb, i'm gonna be there for her.

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[vanessa's pov]
i ask politely if both caleb & cody could leave for the night, i needed some alone time in between them & my parents who were speeding on their way to the hospital.
they agree, kindly.
cody looks me in the eyes, "i'll see you tomorrow, i can take you home. take care. text me if you need me, beautiful." he kisses me longer than he usually does, probably caleb is in the room.
i smile & disconnect our lips, giving him a small wave as he exits the room.
caleb leans over to me, "i don't like him."
"good for you." i grin.
"seriously, vanessa. you're mine." he growls.
i'm taken back by his words, they send chills down my spine. the good kind.
he has janice. stop.
"goodbye, caleb. see you soon."
i open my arms to him for a hug, but instead he leans further in and kisses me.
i don't disconnect our lips, sparks are flying.
i feel alive, i feel good.
he runs his hand over my cheek, softly.
then, he leaves.
i'm confused. i'm in shock.
what the hell?

what the fuck is my life at this point?

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oooooh! double post!

thank you for reading xo

- adrianna