unlovable

part 23

[vanessa's pov]
my heart says hug him, but my brain is definitely the winner, here.
i grab him by the collar of his shirt and drag him outside of the club.
he smirks at me.
"are you fucking kidding me!?" i go to shove him but i stop when my hands reach his chest.
i feel my emotions start to kick in, i start to get emotional.
tears start to form in my eyes, "i don't know where i went wrong, caleb. i loved you with everything i had, you were my everything. you left me, and yeah you broke my heart but then you came back and then you left again.. don't act like you care if you don't. i miss you all the fucking time and i hate myself for it. i have cody now & i'm still thinking about the guy who could give less of a fuck about me. you have a new bitch now. you made your choice. don't make me feel like this is my fault."
his emotions are blank, he doesn't say anything.
"this isn't you. this isn't you, caleb. i hope you find yourself again. even though you don't think about me, i sure as hell think about you. you'll always be the fucking lucky one." i spin on my heel and begin to walk back inside.
he runs in front of me and puts his arms around me.
my entire body relaxes when i'm in his arms.
will that ever go away?
"can you blame me? you made your choice.. you don't get me anymore, caleb.." i mumble into his shoulder.
i disconnect our hug, "i probably should get back inside. take care, caleb."
i then open the door and walk inside-- and i might have heard a faint "i'm so sorry" emit from his lips.

probably just hearing things.

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i immediately find cody and throw my arms around him, "hey, babe. sorry-- i needed some fresh air."
he smiles, "no problem. there was a line, anyways."
i know underage drinking isn't good, but i'm not going to get wasted.
i take a sip of the fruity alcohol that cody brought me, he knows what i like.
"cody!" a guy shouts over the music.
"trent!? what the hell, man, it's been forever!" cody yells, giving him a hug.
cody looks at me after they disconnect, "this is my girlfriend, vanessa. vanessa, this is trent. i grew up with him."
i give trent a small smile and a wave.
he has slicked back black hair & brown eyes. he has a bottle of beer in his hand. he's wearing a black t-shirt and brown jeans with work boots.
he looks extremely masculine. you could probably see him as a hollister model or something.
as they start to talk & catch up, i look around the room. what if caleb left already? i haven't seen him.
i look in the other direction and sure enough, i spot him from across the room. he's staring at me. then, when he knows he has my attention, he goes into the bathroom.
i finish off my drink in one sip and turn to cody.
"i'm gonna run to the bathroom, be right back." i give him a kiss on the cheek and he subconsciously nods in response.
i walk to the bar and set my empty glass on the tray.
as i walk into the bathroom, it seems empty.
then, i feel him grab me and pull me to him.
he locks the door with his other hand.
"hey." he says, quite seductively, i might add.
"caleb... we shouldn't be doing this." i protest.
he places his finger to my lips and whispers, "then keep quiet."
i'm instantly turned on.
he presses his lips against mine. i do everything i can to not give in, to not kiss back.
it's impossible with him.
"something to believe in" by young the giant blasts throughout the club & echoes through the bathroom.
he lifts me onto the edge of the sink & runs his hands under my shirt.
he kisses up my neck & i wrap my legs around his waist. our body heat immediately warms up the freezing bathroom.
i run my hands through his hair. i can't control my moans at this point. this is so wrong which makes it feel so much more right.
i lean against the mirror behind me as his hands trail down to my inner thighs and then slide up my dress.
let's have some fun.

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i fix my hair in the somewhat steamy mirror.
i kiss him one last time, "wait 20 seconds after i leave. thank you for tonight, it was great, really. have fun with her, caleb."
he mumbles, "of course."
i don't know what else to say to him, so i grab my purse and exit the bathroom.
i walk back to cody who is now closer to the bar & still deep in conversation with trent.
"there you are, baby! what took you so long?" he asks, wrapping his arm around my waist.
"long line. so, you two were friends?" i give my best smile & try to focus on the conversation.
cody keeps one arm around my waist, his hand fits tightly on the edge of my hip. he sips water with his other hand.
the dj plays "loyal" by chris brown and i giggle at the thought of what happened a little bit ago.
i love this song.
"babe, can i please go dance?" i beg.
"of course, i'll join you in a bit." he kisses my cheek and i walk to the dance floor.
i feel caleb's eyes on me. he's towards the centre of the dance floor with janice grinding up on him.
i give him a look as to say "yikes" and he laughs in response. i whip my hair around and bounce along to the beat.
"oooh, these hoes ain't loyal!" i yell with the rest of the crowd.
i can still feel his eyes on me.
the dj picks up his microphone, "let's party!"
and turns on "ni**as in paris" by jay z & kanye west.
i immediately look at cody. i know that this is one of his favorite songs.
he rushes to the dance floor and grabs me. i burst out in laughter. we both jump and down, following the rest of the crowd.
it's a good night.

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i know i didn't show caleb's pov but all will be revealed in the future.

thank you for reading!! xo

- adrianna