unlovable

part 25

[vanessa's pov]
when i get to my apartment, my mom is in the kitchen.
"hey, sweetie. how are you?" she asks.
confused. lonely. hurt. depressed.
"i'm doing pretty well." i give her a fake smile and go to my room.
i hang my new dress up in my closet.
i feel my cat brush against my leg, so i pick her up and start to pet her.
she purrs loudly which makes me smile.
at least i can make her happy.
i slide off my shirt and drop it to the ground.
i put on a pair of sweatpants and hop into my bed, pulling out my notebooks and textbooks.
i let down my hair & quickly put it in a braid.
math is awful. i groan out loud as my eyes scan over the textbook page.
fuck my life.

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[caleb's pov]
i've considered texting her or calling her.. or even going to her place & hoping that she's there.
i end up going to a hockey game instead.
i'm watching the game when all of a sudden, i remember the last time i was here.

"no you have to catch it in your mouth." she giggles & grabs another piece of popcorn.
"okay, okay i'm ready now." i smile and open my mouth, trying to stay in her aim.
she tosses it lightly & it lands on my tongue.
"yes!" she cheers, leaning over and kissing me.
what a great reward.
her hair is pulled back into a ponytail, her hair is so long that it still cascades over his shoulders when it's up. her eyes sparkle under the stadium lights. the bright white color of the ice reflects off of both of us, making us glow.
she catches me staring, "what?"
"nothing.. i just love you. you're beautiful, you know that, right?" i ask her.
she blushes and covers her face with the sleeve of her sweatshirt.
"i love you most." she uncovers her face and leans over, giving me another kiss.

i snap back into reality and look around. i'm at a game by myself. i'm not with vanessa.
janice is always busy.. i don't even know what we are anymore.
i know that if i really loved janice, i wouldn't have feelings for vanessa anymore.
i've been distant from everyone, really.
as much as i love hockey.. for the first time, i can't even focus on the game.
the voices in my head are too loud today.

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[cody's pov]
i slowly turn the key into the lock of her apartment door. i open the door as quietly as possible.
her cat runs to me and brushes against my leg.
i smile and lift her in my arms, shutting the door behind me.
it's 3 in the morning.. she's a night owl, but i don't know if she's awake.
the kitchen light is on & her mom's room door is closed. i tiptoe past her door, trying not to bring attention to the fact that i'm here this early.
i couldn't sleep & i miss her so much.
i see a crack of slight shining into the hallway from behind vanessa's door.
i slowly turn the doorknob and peek inside.
she has soft music playing & i instantly recognize that it's adam lambert.
she's laying back in her bed, notebooks scattered around her.
i pick them up & close them all, stacking them in a neat pile on her desk.
when i cover her with her blanket, she stirs slightly and opens her eyes, just a little.
"babe.." she murmurs & lifts the end of the blanket, suggesting me to join her.
i slide under the blanket & she immediately pulls me close to her.
her eyelashes flutter & a small smile spreads across her face.
seeing her smile makes me so happy. i lean over and kiss her on the cheek.
my one & only.

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aww cute fluffy cuteness(:

sorry, short chapter!!

thank you for reading xo

- adrianna