Broken ~{Book Two}~ Daryl Dixon ZA

After

It had been three weeks since Tina skulked back through the fence of Alexandria in the early morning hours, she couldnt shift the guilt she had after being with Negan, she felt dirty and disgusted with herself, feeling like she had shit over her relationship with Daryl she kept herself to herself by staying home more with Poppy not wanting to join the others, not that they really wanted to be around her either, they knew she was changing. Daryl however hadnt spoken more than two words to her, he nor anyone else knew she had sneaked out to see Negan  and she was convinced they could tell by her guilt but that was just in her mind. Daryl was barely home, always recruiting with Aaron and looking for supplies with Rick and a few others.

Tina never felt more alone than she did right now, no one wanted to be around her and she couldnt blame them afterall she had been defending the murderer who ripped apart their group and every time she lay eyes on a devastated Rosita sitting by Abraham's grave she felt sick, a few times she was.

Poppy was babbling away on the bed as Tina tidied the room, opening the cupboard she found underneath a few towels were the notes Negan had written for her, without opening them she screwed them up and shredded them tossing them into the toilet and flushing the chain. Sighing, she had hoped it would ease the guilt of what happened that night. Shaking her head when she realised she had to forget it all, or at least try to.

When she heard a truck pull in she knew it was Negan himself coming to collect the supplies Alexandria had for him, she knew the sound of the truck it was him, he usually sent Dwight or Ethan but Tina had been avoiding the small dug out where they exchanged notes and he was most likely wondering why.

"Lets just stay here baby girl" Tina whispered stroking Poppy's feet, she was beginning to look more like her father every day and it reminded Tina what a mess she was in.

It wasnt long before there was a knock at the door, ignoring it at first but it continued, finally relenting and going downstairs to open the door she wasnt exactly surprised to see Negan standing there "please leave me alone" she pleaded in a weak voice, she spotted the other residents walking past completely ignoring her house, it was as if they expected her to open the door. "Now this is a first" Negan spoke mocking her "you wanting me to leave you alone" he added flashing her mind to that night. "What do you want?" She snapped slightly raising her voice, blocking the door so Negan couldnt enter "Im just checking you are okay darling" he replied softly, the way he spoke like that made her weak and he knew it "I havent heard from you, you ignoring my letters?" He asked choosing now to enter the house as Tina moved aside opening it wider "I just want to be alone" she said saddened "Its not good you being here" she added constantly checking outside the window through the corner of her eye, in case Daryl returned or someone else came by to question Negan being there "you were not bothered by Daryl last time" he joked immediately making Tina blush red "Negan i have to hate you, i just have to, you cant be here, you cant be here with me, what happened that night was a mistake, it was wrong I should never of been there and I hate myself for it" Tina stated, blinking the tears away. Negan shot her a look, it was of disappointment. Tina tried not to look at him but it was hard, "well Daryl obviously didnt care! Its been weeks and ive had no petty threats or even him trying to 'take me out' for it" he mocked, laughing at himself smugly as he finished, Tina rolled her eyes with frustration "he doesnt know" she whispered looking to the floor "and why is that?" Negan quipped flashing a smirk her way "because I didnt tell him!" She snapped back, this made Negan grin proudly, his hold over Tina working in his favour and she knew it. Negan walked around her living room rolling his fingers across the fire place as if to check for dust "see, this is what I think" he began confidently "if you were mine, and you had snuck off with Daryl" he added as he slowly bought Lucille into view taking Tina back "this would be Daryl" and with that he swung Lucille down and broke the coffee table in two with one loud crash making Tina jump at the sound "but thats just me" he finished straightening himself out as if nothing had happened "he dont care darling" he spoke callously as he walked out the house leaving the door open.

He scared Tina when he was like that, his temper changed too quick, and ever since that night he had changed towards her as she left him to go home as if she was of no use to him now.

She began to sob, she could hear Poppy crying upstairs but she didnt go to her, she needed to let it all out.

"What the fuck happened?" Daryl snarled as he walked in eyeing the broken table and hearing Poppy's cries "da hell Tina you not going to go to her?!" He snapped as he bolted up the stairs to their daughter. Tina ignored him, she didnt know how long she had been sitting there sobbing but she heard Negan yell at his men to leave and that felt like a long time ago.

Her heart stopped when she heard Daryl stomp down the stairs "she has gone to sleep" he muttered before walking to the kitchen "Daryl" she called to him standing up, he faced away from her but stopped to hear her "can we talk?" She asked, she spoke in a tone where what she had to say was never going to be good "about what?" He snapped in reply only turning his face sightly to the side to hear her response, his hands were squeezed tightly into a fist, he was preparing for what she to say, she tried to hold herself together as she whimpered the word "Us".