You are not alone

Perspective

We walked around, and went home. I walked in, and gave Jace a quick tour, before we went up to my room to talk.

"So this is your room?" He asked.

"Yeah, but I share it with Jupiter, my friend."

"Oh, cool."

"So what happened with you and your parents?"

"Well, I decided it was time, and I was going to tell him I'm gay. My dad always had a problem when I would say something that made me sound like I was gay, and when I said I actually was, he didn't like it, as you probably could've guessed. And he threw me out on the streets, quite literally."

"I'm sorry that happened to you."

"What about you?"

"What about me?"

"It must be hard to be asexual."

I paused, and blinked a few times. "Are you being serious?" I asked.

"Yeah, having everyone hate you, even some of the LGBT community, being not straight enough to be straight, but not queer enough to be queer."

"Thank you."

"For what?"

"For saying that. It is hard, and rarely does anyone see that."

"It's hard for all of us, and I can tell especially after tonight, that people think it's easier for you because of the type of queer you are."

"It is."

"Anyways, what about you and your parents?"

"They didn't understand what I was, until I explained. And I'm pretty sure they still don't understand. Anyway, they kicked me out." I paused. "It's weird, you think that them of all people would be happy you finally figured it out, but no." I stopped.

"It's hard."

"It is." I paused. "I was looking forward to tonight." I bit my top lip, and continued. "I had never been to anything LGBT related before, needless to say I don't think I'll be going back."

"People can be mean and hurtful, but that shouldn't stop you from doing what you want."

"It's hard when everyone is saying you don't belong there, like lack of attraction is easier, and it's not a real sexuality." I explained, as tears fell onto my cheeks.

"I'm sorry."

"I don't see why they think that it's ok to put me through the same thing they are trying to avoid." I said wiping off my cheeks.

"I really don't know." He said, as we got interrupted.

"Look, Aria has a boy over." A group in the hallway taunted.

"I ship it." Another one stated.

"Really? I'm an aromantic girl and he's gay."

"Well maybe you were just planning on sleeping with him."

"Again, he's gay; and I'm also asexual. Hmm interesting." I replied, the last part with sarcasm.

"It's not like you could really know that you don't like it. Especially if you haven't tried it." They joked.

"Umm, actually I'm pretty repulsed by it, so I know. And it's not like my mind tells me that all the time, so thanks I needed to hear it again from you." I replied.

"Whatever, you're just pretending." they said, as I stood up and swung the door closed. I walked back over and sat down next to Jace.

"Do you really question it?" He asked.

"Sometimes."

"Why?"

"Sometimes I think there's just something wrong with me, like I should be attracted to someone, like I really just haven't found the person yet. I question my romantic orientation, more than my sexuality."

"I'm sorry."

"What people don't see, is that it's easier for them from my perspective. You know if you're attracted to guys or girls, but how do you understand that you're not attracted to anyone? How do you really know?"

"I'm sorry."

"It's fine, just a little glimpse into my mind and my life."

"Let me know when you're ever questioning, and I'll talk to you."

"Thank you."

"You're welcome."

"So, do you want to sleep in here with me and Jupiter? There aren't that many rooms in this house."

"Sure." He answered, as Jupiter walked in.

"Hey guys." She said as she walked over.

"Hi." I said. "How was the rest of the meeting?"

"It was fine, we mostly just talked to each other."

"Oh, well I'm glad I went."

"Really?" She asked sounding shocked, and Jace gave me a weird look.

"Yeah, I met Jace."

"Oh, ok."

"Even if the meeting wasn't great, I made one friend. And he doesn't think I'm faking it, or wanting attention."

"That's good, let's get to sleep, I'm tired."

"Ok. goodnight." I laid down, and stared at Jace laying across the room. I smiled, as I went to sleep.