I remember you

I remember you Chapter 23

Emily's POV

I laid in my bed with Sabrina next to me. We were both in our underwear but I'm sad to say nothing happened last night. We were just too tired getting out of our dresses, we didn't bother to put pjs on. Her back was to me and her blonde hair was still in the braided bun from the party. I made a small smile and moved a fingertip over her warm back and drew on it while she was sleeping.

"You know that tickles right?" She giggled, her voice was heavily groggy which only meant I woke her up and she turned herself to look at me. Her make up was smudged and her hair was so messy but she was still my beautiful Sabrina. I smiled and kissed her nose. "I didn't think I would wake you though. You look so tired, want more time to sleep?" I asked her with concern. She smiled and shook her head and sat up.

She sat on the edge of the bed and stretched. She began to undo her hair and take off her bra. "No use now. I'm awake. I'm gonna take a shower. In the meantime, you should really talk to your mom" Sabrina said and looked over at me sadly. My smile quickly turned into a frown and I pulled my covers over my head.

"I think I'll sleep an hour or more" I told her with fake tiredness and as soon as my sentence was finished the covers were yanked from me and a very angry Sabrina was towering over me.

"Now you listen to me Em. You are going to get up and talk to your mom about yesterday. You are her daughter. You've hid me from your mom long enough. I want to meet her, properly meet her and I want to sit down and talk to her like she's my mom. I don't want her hating me and I dont want her to be mad at you for hiding this vital part of who you are" she told me and I was beginning to see her eyes lightly water and her lip was quivering but she she trying so hard not to give in.

"But if she hates what I am?! What if she doesn't want to talk to me or have anything to do with me and push me away cause I'm the only one of her kids that can't have her own children because I choose to be with a beautiful girl that is now my girlfriend. What if that happens Sabrina? I won't be able to live with myself if that's the outcome" I cried and felt a tear slip out and I quickly wiped it away and looked down in my lap and played with my fingers nervously and I watched as my hands were slightly shaking with fear.

Sabrina sat in front of me and took my hands into hers. "Look at me Emily" she whispered. I refused. I didn't want to look at her or anyone. I was too angry at myself and kept thinking about my mother's choice if words. "I said look at me" she growled and at that point I knew I had to face this situation sooner or later. I lifted my head and I looked into Sabrina blue green eyes and she pulled my face into a kiss and I kissed her back with no much passion and fear. I hope I never lose this girl.

She pulled away and looked me deep in the eyes. "Talk to your mom. I know she wants to talk to you too" she whispered and kissed my nose before walking to the bathroom. I sighed deeply and dressed my self in a white t-shirt and and grey sweatpants and I let my messy hair stay down as I walked out my room and slowly made my way to my mom's room.

I softly knocked on the door and placed myself close to it. "Mommy?" I softly called out, my voice kinda shaky. I didn't hear a response and I turned the knob to see that the door was open. I poked my head out and saw my mom fast asleep in her bed. Her soft, brown, curly hair that I inherited was sprawled out on her pillows and she clutched a picture to her chest as she slept on my dad's side of the bed and she was covered in about 3 blankets and she wore my dad's old Harvard sweater.

I slowly made my way in and closed the door gently behind me. I watched her cautiously as I made my way to her side of the bed and laid down next to her sleeping form and she didn't flinch once.

"Hi mommy" I said to her, I wasn't expecting a response so I obviously didn't get any. "Um I know that you were......shocked about yesterday. But um that girl I was kissing is my girlfriend, Sabrina. She's quite lovely. When she laughs really hard, she snorts and after she looks like a seal cause she claps her hands. She hates it but on her it's adorable. When she smiles, oh god mom when you see that girl smile she's always looking at me the same way dad would always look at you.......like I was the only girl in the room, in the world even and nothing mattered to her but me" I spoke and I felt a knot in my throat and had to stop talking to control it and I sucked in my tears.