How everything changed (One Direction fanfiction)

Chapter Twenty - Don't Leave Me Alone! Please!

Kathryn's P.O.V

I couldn't fall asleep. I countiued to lay awake. Praying that I wouldn't let this moment alone take controll and send me into isolation. Suddenly the door started to open. I looked up to see Louis and Eleanor walking ino the room.

"Hey! You are up!" Louis exclaimed.

"How are you feeling?" Eleanor asked calmly.

"Don't leave me again. Please!" I begged, almost in tears.

"Babe, what happened?" Louis asked concerned.

"I wanted to give in more than ever. I really can't be alone any longer, without giving in." A tear fell down my cheek and Eleanor walked over and hugged me.

"Love, everything will be fine. We wont leave you alone again. I promise."

"Thank you." I sat up and hugged Louis.

"Are you okay now?" Eleanor asked.

I nodded.

"Where's Harry and Niall?" I asked.

"They fell asleep." Louis answered.

"Sweetie, do you want anything?" Eleanor asked.

"Yeah. Food." I answered.

"What do you want?" She asked.

"Umm....... Can you get me an orange or a green apple, please." She nodded and stood up.

"I will be back."

"Thank you." I said as she exited the room.

"So now might be a bad time to ask...... But have you decided if you are coming with us or not?" Louis asked.

"I-I'm not sure. I have been thinking about it, but I don't know if I will be able to go."

"Why not?" He wined.

"I will miss my sister and my friends. All the traveling. It will be exhausting. I don't know, Lou." He nodded in reply.

"I understand." He seemed upset.

"I'm sorry Lou. I really am."

"I understand Kat. Don't be sorry, it is your choice." He grabbed my hand and rubbed the back of it with his thumb.

"I'm so sorry!" I started to cry again.

"For what?"

"Everything." He looked confused.

"You haven't done anything, Kat. You have nothing to be sorry for."

"No Lou. You don't see it. This is all my fault." I started to sob.

He sat on the bed next to me and cuddled me into his side. He stroked my hair and swayed side to side.

"This isn't your fault. None of it is. Why would you think it was your fault?"

"I knew my limits but I still pushed myself further and now we are here. I could have never talked to you and kept my friends. I could have begged my parents to stay and they never would have been that car crash. I could have changed things and never be in this spot right now. I wouldn't be so upset. I would still be living the life I had. The life I loved." I sobbed more.

Louis pulled me as close as possible but didn't speak. I looked up at him and he seemed confused.

"Babe, what do you mean by 'never talked to you and kept my friends'. What happened with your friends?"

I looked away and took a deep breath.

"They don't like the band and now they think I am stuck up and that I think I am all that and better than them. They said I was bragging about it and I wasn't. I never said a word to them about you guys. Now they hate me and won't talk to me." I cried harder.