How everything changed (One Direction fanfiction)

Chapter Twenty -Seven - Cutting Out the Feelings

THIS IS NOT EDITED

Niall's P.O.V

I searched her eyes for any sign of emotion. She sat there with a blank expression on her face. She didn't move, she didn't blink. She sat there looking straight back at me. I was worried.

Liam kneeled beside me and gently turned her head towards him. Out of all of us, Liam is the best at finding the slightest emotion just by looking you in the eyes. He can tell when you sad, happy, or mad. He knows when someone is lying and telling the truth. That's what makes him even better as Daddy Direction.

My heart sank when Liam started to look worried. He cupped Kathryn's face and his eyes searched hers desperately for any sign at all. He pulled away and stood up.

"There's nothing." He kept looking at her. "Her eyes are blank and lifeless. Eyes are the gateway to the soul but hers are like a deep, dark hole that never ends. There's nothing there."

I looked to Kathryn and couldn't believe what Liam said. She had no emotional reaction to this. She probably isn't feeling anything,but maybe, just maybe, if she is feeling anything at all. It's her heart breaking.

I stood up and took a seat next to Kathryn on her bed. I pulled her onto my lap and cradled her close to me. I was hoping I could spark some kind of emotion, get her to feel just the slightest bit. Get her to breakdown in tears or maybe anger. Except that didn't happen. She didn't move. Sat on my lap and let me cradle her. I continued to hold her close in hope that we still had a chance. A chance to bring her back. A chance to save her from the deep, dark hole of her soul.

It was like she was falling of a cliff but I was reached over the edge and caught her. I tried to pull her up but I couldn't. Gravity was to strong. The only thing I could do was hang on to her and hope she would find the strength to pull herself up. The cliff was this emotionless state she is in. Me holding her, I hoped was keeping her from falling farther down into it. Gravity was everything bad that has happened to her since her parents car crash. Her strength is what I hope she can find to get through all of this and go on with her life. Be the person she wants to be and not let this hold her back. This emotionless state she is in will only hold her back.

We laid there for almost an hour now and she still hasn't cracked. I had laid down on her bed and laid her down with me. I was laying next to the wall and she was on the outside. I held her close to me. Afraid that if I let her go physically, then mentally she would fall.

The boys had left a little while ago and were sitting in the back of the bus. They would each take turns, coming in and checking on her. Liam came in this time.

He kneeled next to the bed, near her head. He carefully turned her over to face him and searched her eyes again. He looked down and shook his head.

"She's gone Niall. There's nothing there and there is nothing we can do." He stood up. "Come on Niall. Let's leave her alone."

"I can't. I am not giving up on her, Liam. I promised Emily I would be there for her. You did too. We can't just leave her now just because she reacted like this. She's there, Liam. She has to be. She's hanging on to something. There just has to be something there she feels and is hanging onto." I told him.

"Niall, she's gone." Liam pushed.

"No, I refuse to believe you. She is hanging on and if we leave her and give up on her then she will fall. That's when we will have lost her." A tear ran down my face as I said that.

Liam kneeled back down and stared at Kathryn. Pain and sadness filled his eyes as he still couldn't find anything. Tears fell down his face as well. I looked to the door and saw the other three lads standing there with tears rolling down their faces, too.