Into The Unknown

25

Chris's POV

I sat on the bed and stared at the wall. Carmen would come in the room occasionally to check on me. I started to feel like she was only coming to make sure I was still alive. I thought about going back to Raegan's house so I could get my things, but as the night went on, I realized that I was better off not going back around her.

"Chris?" Carmen said knocking at the door. I didn't answer her, but cleared my throat instead. She entered quietly with a bottle in her hand.

"Um, this is ointment...I'm going to put it on your back and feet. Is that okay?"

I nodded as she walked over to the bed.

"Lay down on your stomach for me."

Laying down, I groaned quietly. My body was sore and I just wanted to sleep. She pressed the ointment into my skin. Her small hands rubbed my skin and I closed my eyes, slowly drifting to sleep.

Raegan's POV

"Chris!!" I yelled, jumping from my slumber. I rubbed my face as I panted. Looking over at Ty, I knew I really messed up.

"Chris?" he murmured.

"Ty, it's not what you think I just–"

"You just what?" he responded, raising his voice, "You've been thinking about him haven't you? That's what's been up with you these past few weeks? You're thinking about him?"

I sat with my head down as he questioned me. I didn't know what to say, or how to explain to him what was going on in my head. Hell, I didn't fully understand what was going on in my head my damn self.

"RAEGAN!" he yelled causing me to jump.

"Yes..." I whispered.

"I'm going to leave until you figure out what you want, alright? I can't be with you if you can't figure out what it is that you want. Just hit me up..."

He got out of the bed and slipped on his shoes. Before I could gather my thoughts, he was gone. I blinked my eyes quickly to prevent myself from crying. Slowly, I got out of the bed and walked towards the bathroom. The scent from Chris's room slowly seeped under the door into my nose. I could smell his cologne and the fragrances incenses he would burn in his room.

Touching the door handle, I opened his door to his immaculate room. I walked to his unmade bed and ran my fingertips across the sheets. His scent was overwhelming me. All of the nights he held me, comforted me, looked after me, were all swarming my mind. My eyes watered as I touched his journal, remember how we even got into this mess. I sat on his bed and cried to myself silently. I knew I messed up and I knew I had to stop my malicious ways in order to make my life easier.

Next Morning

I walked around the store quietly as Henry picked up the food he wanted. My heart was heavy with the pain I was holding on to. I was realizing that my feelings for Chris were much different than those I had for Ty and even Malcolm. I've always been focused on sex and not what was going on in my heart. Chris put me up to that challenge. He was the first guy to focus on me, my personality, my heart and soul, me. Since I didn't get what I wanted from him, I found someone who would resulting in the pain in my chest right now.

"Rae, can I go to Hayden's tonight?" Henry spoke breaking me from my thoughts.

I nodded and kept pushing the basket across the store. A familiar smell crept across my nose. I stopped in my tracks once I saw Carmen walking down the aisle. A tall figure followed behind her. He turned his head and his distinctive tattoos showed on his neck. I chewed my lip and sighed.

"Henry, take the basket and get the rest of the stuff on the list for me." I ordered before fixing my hair. Henry walked away and stepped towards Chris and Carmen. My feet felt heavy, as if someone tied weights to my ankles. The closer I got, the stronger his scent filled my nose. My breathing began to pick up before he turned around, nearly bumping into me. I looked up at him and his eyes fell to mine. I stared at his grey colored eyes and held my breath. He was sucking my soul right from my body. I searched his eyes until the color of his iris slowly changed darker and darker. The color of his soft grey eyes were now a fiery red. I had seen them once before...

"Chris.." Carmen uttered grabbing his hand. Her voice broke the stare Chris and I were holding. He look down towards her, avoiding her eyes, and stepped away from me. My cheeks were flooded with tears.

"Chris, take the cart and get the things you want, okay?" whispered Carmen. I watched as she spoke softly to him and caressed his hand in hers. He took the basket and limped down the aisle.

"He's really hurt Raegan," Carmen explained, "I think maybe you could give him time or something. Just until he can get back on his feet."

"Where did you find him?" I questioned, ignoring her previous statement.

"He was here. Outside. He was disgusting. He smelled, and was dirty walking around the streets without shoes or a shirt on. It was 18 degrees outside when I found him, Raegan. His back and feet are covered in sores where his skin couldn't take the weather," she spoke.

My eyes were filling with tears as she continued to talk. "I know you had something to do with it, and I'm not going to say much about it but he's staying with me right now. I saw the way he looked at you and I can tell you that whatever you did, it's not going to be easy to get back in with him."

"Shut up, okay? You don't know what it was that I did or what's going on with Chris and I." I handed her his phone and scowled.

"Give him his phone and stop trying to play therapist. You fucked us up one time and I wish you would go the fuck away from us," I snapped.

"I didn't fuck y'all up, Raegan, YOU DID. Stop being a whore and maybe he'd still be with you. I hope that dick was good enough to lose him over. You damn near killed Chris and you're still only worried about your damn self. Selfish bit–" I jumped on her in rage and began to bash her face with the can of soup I held in my hand. Her screams filled the store causing people to stop and stare at us.

"Shut. The. Fuck. Up!" I yelled with each blow to her face. She tried to fight back but her crimson blood began to spill from her mouth.

Suddenly, I felt strong hands pick me up. I was thrown down the aisle and I slid down the tile on my back. I looked up to see Chris's red eyes staring down at me as helped Carmen up and wiped her face.

"Let's go, baby girl..." he mumbled under his breath to her. He helped her up but threw me across the floor.

At that moment, I realized I really had lost my baby. I lost the man I was in love with.