Into The Unknown

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Chris's POV

"Someone I hate..." I spoke quietly.

"Well, who? I want to know; because, I've encountered him twice already. Who is that?" she pushed.

I stood up and shook my head. I didn't want to talk about him. I didn't want to face the problem i had with him being a part of me. I couldn't acknowledge something that I had been putting off all my life. It was dark in the room, but I could still feel Raegan staring at me in the darkness. I sighed deeply before confessing.

"I c-call..I call him Cyrus.." I cleared my throat again in order to stay calm.

"Go on.." she poked at me gently.

"I met him when I was ten, shortly after my family died," sitting back down in the chair, I spoke in a whisper. "Some days he would come and I'd destroy everything in my path, and I didn't care who got hurt in the midst of it. I just let him take over, I let him have his way..."

"Well," she paused, "then what? He left?"

I nodded in response, "I didn't have to call on him as often to help me get through things. After the first few times, people got the message. I became dangerous, that's why no one wanted to adopt me. That's how I ended up in foster care for the rest of my childhood. That's how I got kicked out and ended up having to stay in Central Park. I felt bad because the actions I did when I was ten ended up shaping the life I have now."

I heard her sit up and I kept my eyes glued to the wall in front of us. She sighed deeply, as if she was trying to figure out to ask next. I gripped the arms of the chair nervously, waiting, anticipating, whatever it was she was going to say next. Is she ashamed? Is she scared?

"Is that why you don't like for people to look you in the eye? Because of him?"

I nodded again, but this time, I didn't say anything.

"Tell me why then."

"He's not someone I want everyone to know. I know how dangerous I can be when Cyrus is taking over my body. I have the ability to kill someone, and I don't want to be that person again."

Raegan's POV

Again. He said again. Has he killed someone before now? I thought he was the most gentle person I had ever met but now that he's telling me about this Cyrus character, I don't know what to think of him anymore.

I sat on the bed silently. It was so silent that the room was piercing.

"This is why I didn't tell you. I knew you would do this to me," Chris spoke as he stood up from the chair, "I'm going to stay in Carmen's room. Good night." He moved quickly out of the room before slamming the door shut. I honestly didn't know what to think anymore. He was so nonchalant about telling me. Maybe he didn't mean to say again. Or maybe I'm overreacting, but he still hinted at the fact that he might have killed someone before I knew him.

I turned on my side and pulled the covers over my shoulder again. I was disappointed in myself. I missed Chris, more than anything. I missed trying to figure him out, trying to make sure he was always there but it's starting to seem like he's already moved on from me, from what we had. I could tell that he was not into me anymore. His heart was here in this house, well before I got here.

I've lost my mom, my dad, my brother, my boyfriend, my best friend, all in the matter of a year. I didn't know what to do with myself. It seemed as if my entire world was crashing down. A year ago, I was on top of the world. I was the most popular girl in the school, yet here I am, sulking in my tears and grieving the loss of my brother. I didn't know what to do anymore. Everything was out of my control and I guess now, I need to deal with the fact that I am nobody. I'm nobody to everyone now.

As my thoughts took over my brain, I drifted off to sleep, in hopes of escaping my nightmare.

Chris's POV

I walked into Carmen's room quietly, and she sat up on the bed with Marlie-Rae in her arms. I looked at her neck and sighed to myself. My hand prints were prominent and I felt terrible for doing that to her. I was frustrated, and I took it out on her.

Marlie-Rae reached for me and I reached down to pick her up. To my surprise, Carmen let her go. I sat on the bed beside her and rubbed Marlie-Rae's hair gently.

"I'm sorry," I spoke up quietly, "I don't know what came over me. I didn't mean to hurt you like that." I looked over at her as I finished my sentence and she smiled at me slightly.

"It's okay. I forgive you, just don't let it happen again," she assured.

I nodded and laid back on the bed as she rubbed my hair. I looked over at her before sitting up again.

"I'm going to put her down for bed. I'll be right back." I told her as I walked out of the room.

I put Marlie-Rae down for bed and walked back into the room, taking my shirt off. I sighed deeply as I sat on the bed and pulled my shoes off my feet. Standing up, I pulled my pants off and threw them into the hamper before getting in the bed with Carmen. She sat up on the bed and I gently wrapped my arm around her waist. She blushed as she looked down at me and I smiled back at her. For the first time, I smiled at someone, and meant it.

I leaned up and kissed the marks on her neck softly. "I'm sorry," I mumbled against her skin. She nodded slightly as I continued to kiss her skin and apologize to her.

"It's okay, Chris. I promise." she uttered under her breath. I kept my face in her neck before she laid down.

"I love you," she murmured quickly. I blushed and kissed her shoulder before nodding. I didn't know if I should respond or not say anything at all. I thought for a while, and I know she could tell that I was trying to figure out what to say next. I sighed, and took my chance.

"I love you," I whispered against her neck. I felt her smile and she rubbed the back of my neck. I can honestly say that I meant it. I did. Carmen helped me through those times when Raegan was supposed to be there for me. She helped me when I was living on the streets and had nowhere to go. She was forgiving and understanding of me, and my illness. Carmen showed me things that Raegan never did.

I looked up at Carmen and she pressed her lips into mine. I smiled against her lips before we both ended up drifting back to sleep.

Raegan's POV

"I love you" I heard them exchange. It hit me then, that I was no longer a factor in his life. That's it. I'm alone...