Puisi Atmaku

Swallow

Am im a fool?
Dedicated all my time for her
Waiting while loneliness hugged me
While she enjoy her life to fullest?

I suppose not to think
It would make me feel sad
Am i the fool one
Because of falling in love?

I dont want this lonely killing me
Why cant you see me
Im always here for you
I wish you notice me

Im sorry for the tears run down
Im just a pathetic boy
Who being hunt by loneliness
Im all alone dawn till night

I can see you're in pain everyday
I know you're not okay
But it seems someone was there
Comforting you instead me

Is it right what im doing?
Swallow up everything
The pain that i couldnt bear
While smiling at you

I shut my mouth
Preventing from screaming
Just to see you happy
I swallow all this alone

Maybe im just a useless boy
Who couldnt do anything right
Keep on smiling like nothing happened
While its killing me inside slowly

All i can do is writing this poem
Letting the words take care it all
The feels that couldnt be describe
Dying inside me