My Difficult Life As Louis Tomlinson's Sister

Chapter 30

I ran towards the door, the police already tried to open the door. I was so done as Harry told me about the video. I hope that Liz is still alive I couldn't stand it if she died, I love her too much.
It would kill something inside me if she would die. I don't even know what to do when she would die, I mean she is the world to me. She is maybe was, ugh Louis stop thinking stuff like this, always someone who cheered me up when I was down. She helped me through a lot of shit and I am sorry that I didn't notice how god damn weak she was. I am sorry for not helping her with her depression, but I also think that we all can't fix her. She needs to go in a clinic if she is still alive. She needs professional help.
I unlocked the door and ran with all the people into our house. She just couldn't be dead!
We ran up the stairs through her room and to the bathroom the lock was locked and with a big booom unlocked I the door. I didn't care that my shoulder was hurting like hell because of that, I just wanted to help Lizzy! We ran into the room and there she laid. Blood split out of her wrists and pills laid everywhere around her.
I stopped in my tracks and collapsed in front of her, screaming her name and just began to cry. The doctors hold me up and began to do some medical stuff with her. They began to reanimate her. Her body flew up to this weird reanimate thing. I began to cry more and more. I turned around and saw the boys standing in the door frame and looked at everything, they were shocked. They didn't move a single muscle. It was horrible. They didn't even blink. They looked frozen. I turned my head back to Lizzy and saw how they began to flick her wrists. They pulled her on a barrow and walked downstairs with her. two were carrying it and two other tried to get her back to life. It was the most horrible thing to see.
My little sister, fighting for life and death. It was all my fault. It was my fault that she was broken like that, it was all my god damn fault!
"Come Louis, they are in the ambulance car." A comforting and was on my shoulder, I turned around and saw that Zayn it was.

Harry's POV

We walked behind the police and doctors in the bathroom and I couldn't believe my eyes as I saw this beautiful and strong girl, what she totally was, in the bathtub, blood everywhere around her and pills lying on the ground.

It was horrible to see how they tried to reanimate her, I never saw something like that, but as I saw her lying like this did I notice just that I loved her even more than I thought...

Niall's POV

Liz was like a sister for all of us and I just couldn't believe my eyes as I saw her lying in the bathtub, pale as hell and it seemed like she was death. I couldn't move, I couldn't say something, I couldn't breath and I couldn't cry... I don't even know why, but I couldn't cry. I looked around and noticed that the other boys all couldn't cry either. Okay, Louis was crying his eyes out, but it was his world lying in the bathtub and fighting for life. I couldn't believe that we didn't notice before how broken she was, Liz was always difficult but I never thought she was this broken and just wanted to end her own life.
She needs professional help if she won the fight...

Liam's POV

How could Harry and I just do that to her?! Harry was all the time right and we should never ever begin this whole bet! She was so fucking broken and we fucked with her feelings! How could we?! Liz was an angel, she always made me laugh and I really loved spending time with this beauty.
How couldn't we notice that she was suicidal? We should have notice and then wouldn't have happen all of that. We could have send her in a clinic and they could have fix her, nothing of this would ever have happen!!!! I am just sorry for Liz... I hope she doesn't die. I love her too much to stand the pain.

Zayn's POV

Liz couldn't die! I love her so much! She was more than a friend! She was family for me... I loved her like my own sisters and she couldn't die! Her lifeless body on the ground of the bathtub was the most horrible thing I have ever seen in my life, she looked so broken, hurt and death... but on the other side looked she like she was peaceful sleeping. She looked like the angel she was.
The doctors tried to reanimate her, they carried her downstairs and Louis got a total meltdown, but who could blame him? If I wouldn't be shocked like this I bet I would get the same thing, but I couldn't cry. I was so hurt and angry that I couldn't cry. I slowly walked to Louis and laid my hand in a comforting way on his shoulder.
"Come Louis, they are in the ambulance car." I whispered sadly at him and he turned around and looked at me with the saddest and most broken eyes I have ever seen. He looked death.
Louis nodded slowly and I helped him stand up and helped him to go downstairs and outside of the house. We heard the people in the car speak and we heard machines and everything. Louis closed his eyes in pain and I swallowed as I heard them talking. It didn't sound good... I hope they can reanimate her...

Liz's POV

It's so peaceful to die. I can hear birds and everything turned slowly white, not black, it turns white.
I see my whole life in front of me, all the events as I was little, it's beautiful.

"mom? I don't want Lizzy to go out with this jerk! He is no good for her! He smokes and just want to fuck with girls. Just look at him! He already looks like a bad boy!" I hear Louis voice from downstairs. I sighed angrily and stormed up the stairs.
"Louis you fucking asshole!" I screamed at him and my mom looked annoyed at me.
"Language Liz!" She said and I rolled my eyes.
"Just because he fucks a lot of girls doesn't mean that I am a whore like that and fuck him!" I yelled angrily and tears flew down my face.
"Lizzy, I just want to protect you!! He is an asshole!" And Louis was right what I noticed a few days later. He tried to touch me and as I didn't want to he began to scream at me and I just managed to ran out of his house just in time before he could make worse things with me.
Louis was all night up and ate ice-cream with me and hugged me and told me what a fucking idiot he was, but he didn't say something like "I told you" or "next time listen to me." he wasn't like that and that made him to the best brother in the world to me. He was just there for me and tried to cheer me up. He was the best brother in the world...

"Lizzy!! I did it only one more show and I am in the finale!" Louis screamed through the line and I smiled with a fake smile, if he would know how everyone hated me because of him. If he would know how I got bullied for being his little worthless sister. If he could know how much pain it was for me... but I was the best sister in the world and didn't want him to worry about me. The show was more important. It could change his life.
"Wow, Louis!!! I am so proud and happy for you!" That was all I said with the biggest fake smile on my lips ever and with a single tear rolling down my eyes.

C'mon Liz! Maybe they like you if you are skinny, everyone loves skinny girls. The only important thing today is to be skinny. So c'mon Liz! Just pull your finger in your mouth and throw up. It isn't that difficult just do it! You are strong enough to become skinny! And that was all I needed to throw up with the biggest and craziest smirk on my face ever.

Throwing up and starving alone didn't help. It made me sad and the only thing I wanted was getting some relive, and my relive was cutting. I remember my first cut. I watched a Victoria Secret fashion show in the internet and all these perfect models made me so sad that I couldn't stand it anymore and began to horrible cry. I took my razor and cut as deep as possible...

"C'mon little girl. It helps you with your stress. These are the best pills I have." A random dealer from my school said to me and I nodded as stupid and naïve I was. So I bought my first drugs... To this time I already smoked cigarettes.

"So guys... It's my blog and it's kind of a diary you all can read... and well... I don't know I love pale girls so I decided to make a pale blog... So ehmm follow me if you want idk and well, thank you." That was my first Tumblr post and from day to day got I tones more of Followers, I don't even know why they followed me, but they did...