My Difficult Life As Louis Tomlinson's Sister

Chapter 40

In the last week I learned how to live my life normal again. They showed me how I should react in some situation which are difficult for me.

I learned how to talk to the paps and to interviewer, I learned everything about publicity life. It was hard for me, but it kind of really helped me.

Chris sent my nutritional protocol to Louis with all the times I should eat. It's important to people with an eating disorder to eat in constant times each day. The other thing is that I shall never be alone after I ate. It annoyed the hell out of me, but well I can understand it kind of.

Another thing is how I should react when people talk about my weight or other stuff in the media. How I should react when they talk about my suicide try and how I should react about drugs and alcohol abuse. As Jane (my other therapist) talked with me about this stuff I kind of felt really insecure first, but soon I learned to talk about it. It felt good to know I could do it.

"So that's our last cigarette we smoke then?" George said as we were outside. I nodded and sighed.

"I'll miss you babe." George said and sighed.

"I'll miss you, too. I'll visit you in here and we call each other." I said and hugged him.

"Yeah." He said and kissed my cheek.

"Who is coming to pick you up?" He asked me and I smiled.

"Lou and Lux. The boys have a concert and they can't fly in. So Lou and Lux come and get me. We drive to the airport and then we take the private jet back to well... I don't even know in which city they are right now... I think it's only like one more city before America. I don't know." I said and took a drag from my cigarette.

"That's cute, but didn't you tell me that Harry and the boys promised you to pick you up?" He asked me confused and I sighed.

"I mean... It's my fault that they stopped the tour and I don't want to be the reason again for a cancelled concert." I said and meant what I said.

"Yeah, well I guess your right." He said and I smiled.

"Lizzy, they are here." Ellen came to me and I smiled. So now I have to face the real world. I can't hide behind this barrier anymore. I'm now back to face the world... I hope it won't broke me.

"Bye Lizzy, you don't know how much you helped me and how much I'll miss you. You are an amazing person and you will always have a place in my heart." George said and I smiled. I hugged him tight and whispered him in his ear that I would miss him a lot and that he is strong and can do it. He smiled and kissed my cheek again.

I walked towards Ellen and walked behind her, I already said goodbye to Gina and Nela and told them how happy I am to see them in LA soon.

I walked towards the front door and saw Lou, Lux and Paul waiting of me.

"Lizzy!" Lux screamed and ran towards me. A tear escapted my eye as I saw Lux. I missed her a lot. She was like a little sister for me.

Lux hugged me tight and I smiled as I spun her around.

I had Lux on my arm as I walked to Lou and Paul. I was happy that Paul was here, too.

"Hello, love. You look stunning." Lou said and hugged me tight. Lux was still on my arm. I smiled and hugged Paul later as well.

"The boys don't know that we pick you up today. They thought Lou had some important stuff to do and well, I told them someone from my family was ill." Paul said and I smiled. That will be a nice surprise.

"We'll arrive portugal in 3 hours. Our drive to London will be a two hour drive. In five hours the boys have a concert so we thought you wave at them from front road and that would be a lovely surprise for them." Paul told me and I nodded.