My Difficult Life As Louis Tomlinson's Sister

Chapter 54

It says that one moment can change your whole life. It happened in my life already several times, but this time - it was different, because I cared about it. I knew how stupid I was and hate me for taking these drugs.

This time I totally messed up. I felt like a 11 years old who had a bad fight with one of her school mates and sat in the office from the principal waiting for her parents to get her punishment... but sadly it wasn't like that. I was all on my own in the police office, trying to explain what happened last night. The police officer was a middle aged man and looked really worried at me. He didn't even look pissed, just worried. He took a deep breath and let his breath go just seconds later.

"So...Elizabeth." He said and looked in the file in front of him.

"Last night was really hard chore, huh?" He asked me. I nervously played with my hands and looked around. I felt the tears build in my eyes.

"I didn't want to." I said dazed. I still felt the influence of the drugs. I was still dazed.

"What didn't you want?" He asked me and took some notes.

"I didn't want to." I said again. I shook a little bit. That's the bad side of drugs, To be normal again is a hell of a feeling by me.

"Elizabeth, try to calm down." He said in a calm voice.

"I-I need a break... C-Can I drink some water p-please!" Well, maybe these drugs weren't LSD... I never felt this way after taking drugs.

The police officer looked confused at me and gave me water which I drunk really fast.

"I-I need m-more!" I said shacking.

"I think I'll call the ambulance." He said and pulled his phone out. He tipped something in it and soon talked to someone.

Minutes later came an ambulance team.

"What did you take?" The young paramedic asked and I looked confused around. It was all so slow and I kinda liked the feeling. Drugs never had this effect on me.

"I don't know." I said honestly and grinned in a scaring way.

"We have to take her in the hospital." The paramedic said and I passed out...

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Beep beep beep

I hated that sound so much. I hated to know I did something stupid and end up in here. I hated the feeling of knowing I was a big fault.

A team of doctors were around me as I opened my eyes.

"Fuck. What did I do?" I asked. Already knowing I did something really stupid.

"Miss Tomlinson. You took some pills and it all got out of control." The young really attractive doctor said.

"Oh, how many days did I pass out?" I asked and the doctor looked on his file.

"Only a few hours." He said and smiled.

"Okay, can I go now?" I asked him and he swallowed.

"Well, the police is still waiting. They want to have a chat with you." He said and I groaned.

"Okay. Did anyone call my family or someone like that?" I asked ashamed.

"You are all over the newspaper and media, I think it is impossible to not notice that." The young doctor said and I groaned.

"Could I maybe have my mobile phone back? I really need to have a call." I said and ran a hand through my hair.

"I'll do my best to get your phone back." He said winking at me and exited my room. Minutes later came he back with my phone.

"Here. Just ring for a nurse if you need anything else." He said and I smiled happily.

"Thanks a lot." I said blushing.

"Oh, could I maybe talk to a psychologist?" I asked ashamed and looked on the ground with a fading smile. He nodded with a worried smile and I thanked him again.

I took a deep breath before I called Louis. It didn't take long till he answered the phone.

"Liz! What the fuck did you do?! I trusted you! I freaking trusted you! And now? Now you are filmed being high! And what the fuck?!" Louis yelled in the phone and I swallowed.

"I'm sorry." I whispered. I wanted to yell at him as well and tell him that he was filmed too, but I couldn't find my voice. I was too broken for an argument.

"Where are you?" Louis asked sighing.

"In a hospital. The drugs were way too strong for me." I said and I couldn't stop the chuckle leaving my mouth.

"That's not funny! How could you even take these drugs!? I mean smoking weed is one think but taking cocaine, LSD, speed, magic mushrooms etc is another league! You didn't take her heroin or anything like that or?! Please tell me you didn't!" I think Louis was crying.

"No, I didn't." I said silently.

"And you don't think about taking it, right?" Louis asked me and I bit my bottom lip. I just noticed how much I wanted to get high and the drugs I always took weren't enough for me. I always wanted more.

"No, I'm not planing on doing it." Was it a lie? No, or? Fuck.

"I talked to the doctor and I'm speaking a psychologist soon." I whispered and Louis sighed.

"It was the biggest fault to let you out of the rehab clinic. You aren't ready to live a normal life." Louis said and I lifted my eyebrows.

"What does that mean?" I asked him and he sighed.

"I don't know, yet. But it does mean that you aren't going anywhere on your own." He said and I bit pissed my bottom lip.

"Even when I'm with you I can take drugs or throw up. That wouldn't stop me and you know that. I already did it." I hissed back.

"Do whatever you want to do! Die if you want! I won't care! Don't you see how fucking much it breaks me to have a sister like you?! You ruin my life! All I ever wanted was to sing and you know that! You always knew it was my dream and my own sister is ruining it! I don't fucking care what happens with you. Just let me alone and don't come back to me when you don't have enough money to buy your fucking drugs. Do whatever you want. It's your life." Louis said in a angry calmed voice. So that was it now?

"I'm sorry for being the person I'm! It isn't my fucking fault that I'm depressed!" I yelled in my phone and threw my iPhone against the next wall.

I hate Louis. I'm never going to talk to him again.